HAVE NOT BEEN IN TOUCH WITH ANYONE.'.'.'.'.'.''.'.'.

Today I wanted to tell all my DS friends that I LOVE ALL OF YOU,JUST HAVE NOTBEEN ABLE TO GET BACK IN THE GROVE...........I ASK YOU TO FORGIVE ME PLEASE..'.'.'..'...........You know I lost my sister just recently and now I am dealing with a hip replacement.I just do not know what I should do. Today is the first day I have been back on DS in awhile. That is a real NO NO NO.This is a good site but I MUST ASK YOU TO BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR THE DELAY.What I AM ABOUT TO SAY MAY SEEM HEARTLESS to some people but it is not meant to be that way.When my wife died May 1999 I lost alot and did not know what to do.I  made up my mind that I had to go on. I loved my wife,but I NEVER GRIVED FOR HER ,LIKE I HAVE FOR MY SISTER. Am I a terrible person. LOVE is a STRONG WORD and I LOVED MY WIFE.Ya I CRIED but my heart was not as heavy as it is now.Please tell me what is WRONG WITH ME. AM I A TERRIBLE PERSON. MAYBE I should not bother you good people with my problems. I DO LOVE ALL.  THANK YOU

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reerose
reerose

please tell me you got my messages. i dont even know if this will go thru. ive been on the phone with Geeks for 2 days & want you to know how much i care. M. xoxo
reerose
reerose

you need not ask forgiveness, we love you. you need time to grieve. i just pray my computer will work for once & let you know how much i need you & our friendship. M.
billwfriend
billwfriend

I know you loved both but the bonds between sister and her brother are great and I know you loved your wife...,a bit of different circumstances can make one death easier than another....I grieved my Dad passing which is natural but when my neighbor and friend was murdered in his police uniform while going to get his dinner by a nutjob that took his gun and went into city hall and killed a bunch of other people I really hurt a lot....I missed him more than I missed my own dad....and that made me think about the situation....my dad had alzheimer disease which when he left this world ended his battle...my friend was stolen from this world....big difference to my mind....

hugs bill
MendingAgain
MendingAgain

It doesn't mean you loved either any less, it just means that the feelings you had for each was different. It's like grieving for a mother and father or your own child. We can't explain mourning, it just is. You had so many losses and I am so sorry for your grieving. I pray you will get through this and find a comfort to make it through another day. (((hugs)))
Nev
Nev

You don't bother anyone, we are here for you. You have been a supportive friend for everybody, I am sure. You are not a horrible person. In my opinion we have different connections to people in our lives, and family is supposed to bring the more strong ones, so griving family is supposed to be hard. Don't feel guilty, just accept how you feel, you need your own compassion right now. You are also going trough a health problem. I know it's hard but just take care of yourself, look at yourself as a good friend who is going trough a hard situation. Hang in there my friend!! Hugs...Nev
unfair96
unfair96

Nothing is wrong with you Milklover and you're not a terrible person. 1. You and your sister are blood relatives, you came from the same womb. Whereas you and your wife was related by law. 2. You have known your sister all her life or all your life but maybe not so with your wife . It's ok to grieve my dear.
milklover
milklover

Thank you to ALL. I just now got back on line.You all are special. Take Care.