hating this so much

never felt this down before. i just don't know what to do. why is everyone that i know not making time for me? i don't get it. like its to the point that even online people arnt making time for me. like every single person is just leaving me out in the rain and just leaving me. i can't stand this pain, i just can't. i feel numb all over. i just don't feel anything anymore.