Hateing life

lately i haven't been doing so good, i just break down all the time. i been feeling really bad about every thing. it just seems like im never good enough for any one. my mom never sees all the things i do for her, but consitrats on the things i dont do. but she doesn't know what im going through. when i lived in ireland she had an idea that i was a little depressed, but didn't know that i was on the brink of suicide. i cutt agen yesterday and today, and was so relived because i hadn't done it in a while.