Hate my life
I hate my life,i've just started to realize that i have other good qualities and took the mini psw for two weeks earned a certificate(i was so thrilled)but then i had a meeting with my mental health worker and was told i don't dress good enough and that she and the teacher didn't like the way i was,instead of saying whatever asap i was proud of myself,ate(even though my anorexia is pulling me back) and generally had a real zest for my own life without worrying so much about my family.That was yesterday and i only got roughly 3hrs sleep because all i wanted to do was cry and be gone,today i tried shopping for "more appropriate"clothes which was hard considering i like and feel good in what i already wear(ispent money i really didn't have)I feel a bit better because all my friends at the hospital are helping me and i was given a mini make-over and loved it but worried too because it was a slight change that i felt was not really needed until i get accepted.I'm having terrible body image issues and worry over fatness and i haven't been drinking my ensure enough and i lost 2 1/2 lbs in a month and i worry my doctor and even though she knows i didn't try to lose weight,she wants me to be happy and healthy.i also worry about how much i should tell authority figures because it will hold me back,but i do want to get better and make a good life and bring mom home!!
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