HATE MY LIFE.
Hello everyone. I am having. a really. rough time right now I hate My Life. and my family. Everything thing. I do Is wrong. I am so worthless My Friends hate. Me They never take me anywhere. They always get to have fun. My family. Is driving. me crazy I am such a loser. Im worthless Im just a piece of trash. I can't do anything. right Every time. I make friends My dam parents always. break us up. Thats what they did to one of my best friends I am not allowed to see her and its driving. me insane. I miss her so much she was the only. friend that gave. A shit about. me. Maybe I should runaway and never come back Thats how I am feeling I feel so alone. and scared. Nobody seems to understand how. depressed I am. I cry myself to sleep every night.
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I\'m sorry that you are going through this hard time. You are a special person, a caring person. ( You might not want to hear this but I am going to tell you it to you any way. Remember I am not trying to preach to you.) You are not alone. God is right there with you carrying your burdens on him. Try to get on your knees and give all your troubles to Him. Are you on any antidepressants? It might help if you mention your depression to the doctor. Remember we love you. I hope you get your spirits up soon. Here is a ((((BIG HUG)))) for you. Take care.
im sorry to hear your so unhappy :( you seem like a great person! lots of prayers and hugs!
Tabby , I know how you feel except I never had friends in the first place. My ex of over 10 years made sure I had no friends, that I never learned to drive and that he controlled my every move and I never got . He wasn\'t into taking me out. I never been good at making friends. Do your parent\'s feel you friends are bad, and are a bad infjuence on you. I yearn so much for a friend who lives near me and was interested in being around for me. it wouldn\'t have to ve all day. I can\'t get out unless I take a medicab to the doctors, if I want to go anywhere else, I have to use a servixe called Liftline and they are difficult. you need to guess how long you will be there, it hard to do that sometimes. My sister lives in the same city about 1/2 hour away yet doesn\'t invite me to her home for holidays. If she didn\'t want to waste gas to pick me up I could have come in Liftline. She banned me because I simply asked her mother in law was bash me verbally at Christmas time and I said nicely could you please stop it to her. Well she got pissed and had a fit. my sisters mil that is so no longer can have dinner with them. So I have said through two years of having no holidays except when I went to Ohio to see my brother on the train. I try to distract myself. I don\'t have a pet, or anything. I don\'t get one but I would love a dog because I wouldn\'t be able to take care of them. I so wish I could just play a game with people, or watch a movie. I guess I really would like to move near my brother in Ohio but I don\'t know anything there. It would be so difficult to start over. I know they have some bus but my brother doesn\'t understand. I woulld need to use a handicapped transport and it on a schedule. what if I mssed it. also. new doctors, new housing, new everything, and I would have to do all my self and my brother has health problems. I don\'t want to depend on someone and then have them not able to do what I thought they would. I wish they lived closer then I would definietely do it.
Thanks. Everyone. for your comments Stranded. My parents think that the friends I have are not a good. influence. on me. It makes me so mad I have this friend that Lives in rad cliff Ky. I have ask my mom several times if I can go down and visit. her. My mom always says. no Shes afraid. that I will get hurt. Because my friends Husband Just got out of jail for Domestic violence. I told my mom I will not get hurt and she keeps. saying. Tabitha you don\'t know These. people. that well She keeps. telling. me that I Will end up getting. raped or killed if I go down there. I yelled at my mom you let me go To Carl Perkins. And look what happened to me I yelled at her. that its not fair. I also told her to leave me he hell alone I just feel like my parents are to controlling.
I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I will pray for you. Please remember that you have friends here and that you are wonderful, beautiful and kind person.
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I feel so sorry for you Tabby but every one is worthwhile in God\'s eyes. Do not give in to the feeling that you are worthless. You are not. big hugs, from Liekie