hate feeling alone

Still no word yet as to whats going on with my fiancees release from the hospital....  Not only is my anxiety & depression up because of this but when I need him home because tomorrow will be 2 yrs since I lost my mom I just feel soooo alone and I honestly hate this feeling.....  Although I have the one friend shes going to be busy today & tomorrow....  Shes going to be busy with her mom as its her moms birthday today......  So Im trying my best to NOT think about all of this but its hard.....  I come from a big extended family on my moms side (im the only child but have numerous cousins one aunt my moms sister who lives in another state) but none of them that live locally bother with me.....  I keep in touch with my aunt but try not to call her too much because I feel as if Im being bothersome sooo I just try to call her once a wk if that then I talk to my cousins wife alot on facebook we try to make it a point to talk on the phone once a week if our schedule allows us to but sometimes that doesnt always pan out.....