Hardest Day of My Life!!!!!

   A few years ago, my 1st ex husband Billie, beat me up. I went to the local DV office and filed a petition for a Injuction for Protection, when I went to my hearing, The judge denied the final order because of "Lack of Evidence" I didn't have any picture's, witnesses (yeah, right, like he'd put his hands on me with anyone around) nor did I contact Law Enforcement ( I do not contact Law Enforcement for any reason) Billie denied the allegations (suprise, suprise) and I was denied protection. Then, TODAY, I had my hearing from another Injuction for Protection against my 1st ex husband Justin. This man became so irate, because I refused to buy him drugs, that he slammed on the brakes, causing me to slam my head on the windshield. Then when I attempted to exit the vehicle, he took off like a bat out of hell and tried to throw me out of the moving vehicle. At that point, I wanted to contact Law Enforcement for the first time in my life, I reached for my phone, exclaiming to Justin that I was going to call the police. Justin proceeded to grab my forearm so tightly that it left a bruise for a week, and took my phone so I couldn't call the police. But because I had no picture's. or police report and no witnesses ( Jon withnessed the bruise on my arm as a result of the incident Jon had planned to be there today, but at the last minute an emergency meeting with the home owner of the house we're currently working on came up for this morning and he was unable to make it. I even requested to the judge that he contact Jon telephonically or reschedule the hearing so Jon could be there to testify. The judge IGNORED my request!!! Bottom line is, Justin has many friends in the legal field and knows pretty much EVERYONE at the courthouse, so he was able to Manipulate the system and again I am without protection. What is it going to take, for me to get KILLED before they realize that maybe this girl DID need protections???  I guess that's what I get for putting my faith back into the judicial system here in Lee County, once again, after they had already failed me once!!!!

I made the hardest decision of my life today. Since my girls don't want ANYTHING to do with me, and I want Justin out of my life PERMANATELY, I am going to sign the Termination of Parental Rights and consent for Step Parent Adoption.... 

I welcome any and all support, advice, information, comments.....