harder

I only exist!  I eat I sleep and I wonder around in a daze.  There is no living to be done.  There is only survival.  I have so much love to give but no one to give it to.  I have a family but all they want is cooperation someone told me yesterday at least I had a family.  In all reality I have relatives who only look at for themselves.  So I appreciate all the little messages of support or a simple hug.  I know I have to survive to reach a better place but some days are harder than others.  Today has been one of those days