Hard to positive at this point...
I am so upset right now...10dp5dt and hpt is negative. I know miracles happen, but typically they happen to everyone but me so I'm not holding my breath anymore. I'm not supposed to have my beta until Friday 12/30 but I called today (waiting for a return call) and I requested my blood be drawn sooner...there is no reason to continue this torture. Blood will show all the way to 0 and if it is 0 then there is no chance in us being pregnant from this cycle. I feel like I could just puke. I cried all day yesterday and today I am just SO angry at everything. I almost wish we didn't have frozen embies because I would just throw in the towel. Here i sit, feeling prego symptoms (progesterone), fat, weak, exhausted, tons of missed work, $12K poorer...whats next? We had 60-70% chance of success...and it didnt work...FET has way less than that...how can I even put myself through this again? Ugh...
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Oh hun....I\'m so sorry your feeling this way. Ivf is so tough, no one can understand unless they\'re going through it. The 2ww is just awful because you feel all these symptoms, but you can\'t tell until the beta..unless of course you bleed two days before every time like myself. Anyway, if you need someone to talk to, let me know....***hugs***
Thanks Nikki *hugs* I\'ve never been so miserable and felt such a mix of emotions before...I just don\'t feel like myself. I\'m normally so active and outgoing and the last month I\'ve just felt like shit...for lack of better term. The nurse called me back and they won\'t test me early because she said there is still hope...because we transferred morulas on day 5 rather than blasts. I told her I have done tons of research and while I realize that I also feel defeated...I don\'t know. I just cant understand why they won\'t do one today...and hey, if its not zero..then yay! But no, the only way to get an early test is if I\'m bleeding or get a positive HPT. So the wait goes on...and on...