Hard to live
It can be so hard to just live on a daily basis. It is hard to wake up and just wait for the day to end. The days get longer and harder all the time.
I am so terrified of life. I am scared of what will happen next. Actually, i'm absolutely terrified. I am scared of what people must think of me. I am mostly scared of what my parents might think of me. I get scared that they will love me less. Although, they assure me that they won't love me any less. It still scares me.
I am so terrified of life. I am scared of what will happen next. Actually, i'm absolutely terrified. I am scared of what people must think of me. I am mostly scared of what my parents might think of me. I get scared that they will love me less. Although, they assure me that they won't love me any less. It still scares me.
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Hey there mjones,
Please don\'t allow yourself to think this way. This is a trick our minds play on us when we are feeling depressed and anxious, and it is just that - a trick. It only seems this way.
It is definitely hard to live if you are terrified before you even start (bear with me here \'k). Never assume that anyone thinks badly of you. For example, do you think any of us - your friends on here, myself included, think badly of you because you are in pain? Your parents care about you, so why on earth would they think badly of you - I know they must care because you are concerned what they \"might\" think, and that tells me enough to know they must care deeply. If the roles were reversed and it was them in your shoes, would you love them any less or would you want to do anything you could to help them hon? We know the answer, don\'t we. These thoughts bubble up from your subconscious at night because \"it\" knows things are not as they should be right now and it (like a small child) is 100 emotional and it is looking for what to do. If you had a small child that was upset, wouldn\'t you hold her hand and comfort her? Why not try being gentle on yourself hon rather than beating yourself up. You are a lovely human being. I know this because you care enough to worry about what others might think. Be proud of the fact you are a decent person. Know that this will pass, and right now you are just in a temporary holding pattern while they sort the runway out for you to land in your exciting, new destination. Find something to make you laugh, have a cry if you need to, find people you can also help with just a kind word or by the simple and powerful gift of listening to them. You will get through this, you know that deep down or you would have given up, yes? It\'s is going to be okay. Hugs ;)