Hard times

Went to the cemetery this morning and left some flowers at my son's grave site.  It is his birthday on Thursday and he would have been 43, it is hard to believe that it has been six months since he died of suicide.  I am still having a real tough time forgiving him and hope the days comes when I can do this.  I miss him very much but I am so mad at him for all  the people he has hurt by taking this way out.  It has left a real void in a lot of peoples hearts and I ache for his two wonderful children and his wife.  I have a wonderful family and a lot of support but I still feel so empty.  I have a wonderful wife and daughter and know the hurt they are going through.  We have been going to a group session once a week, but it will end this week we are planning on doing another one later in the spring.