hard time
I have just been having a hard time comming in here ....I am having stress it is somthing I am feeling up my back it feels terable ...I am more sencitive to the emotions in here ....feeling the pain in here and it is on top of what I am feeling my self and there has been things that I have been .......going through here that is also not helping .........also adding to the stress ....and angisity ...I am feeling ...I am having to take an extra pill ..to help me out ....somthing I tealy don't want to be doing .....but I can't stand the feeling ...I am getting ..up my back .....and in my chest .....I have to get my self out of this .....take care ....God bless
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My dear friend we are entering the fall weather. Where the days are shorter. Less sunshine. I know that is making me sad.
I have read your other recent journals and I understand you are troubled by a past memory. I have used the writing to get my feelings out when I have those memories. Sometimes it does help. Often I find a good book or just getting real busy helps me sort through the thoughts.
I sure am sorry you are going through this though. Sending you lots of warm hugs and prayers.
I am so, so, sorry what you are going through. When you say Here? What do you mean? Do you mean DS?
I got such a great reply from you about taking a med I did not want to take. But I did take your advice. Very good advice. If you are not comfortable coming here I will so gladly send you my email address and you can say whatever you want and it will go no farther. You have really been a great help to me. And a great friend.
Hugs!!!!
hippyone........yes less sun is hard on us ....but it has also been doing a lot of raining here and that has been making my migrains acting up so I think that doesent help ......it seamen that I was going Dowen just befor I was reminded about that memmorie ....and than I just got angry but I think it was just that I was going Dowen it took a weak and I started getting over that ....so I am over that memorie now .....that hasent bothered me like that for years so it just might of been that I was just going Dowen .......so now I am still Dowen .....just have to be carfull with my self ........take care of my self .........I have been reading and trying to make sure I get enough rest ...I know it will pass ..just when ...not so sure .......thankyou so much for caring and answering my post ..............................Carlyj....................I might a well just say it .......people might not belive it but it is just getting hard to make excuses fo why I am not answering right away or not going on the DS board ............if I was feeling better it wouldent be such a problem I would still have to be carfull ....but I could be on more ......................I feel things ...in here ......I don\'t just read the words ...I feel the pain behind the words ......especualy with some that I am close to .....and those who are realy bad ......and than what happened is this pain goes on top of my owen depreshion and sinkes me down ......so my depreshion gets worse ......that is what has been going on it started with ....one person in here going through a very hard time ....and than ....I went on DS bord when I schould not of .....and it got worse ....because of all I felt there ......so I have to staway from the DS bord .......I can\'t go there .....the problem now is I can still feel some of it bleeding through .....everytime I come on the group ......so when I come on the group I feel like I could cry ...it is just under the surface ......but it is getting better because now I can talk on here ......befor when it started i .misunderstood what I was reading ......and could not give good advice ............I am doing much better than that now ....also there has been ..somthing here going on that has been bothering me ...one of my sons has been going through a hard time and I have been feeling that and knowing there was nothing I could do that it would just come to a head so I haven\'t talked to him since it started and it came to a head this weekend ...so now I will talk to him this weak .....and ..this is also getting better .........I am at a delicate place ............and I need to have my friends talking to me in here I need to talk to people who understand what I go through ..with depreshion .........so I am trying to rite here more ...so that can happen .....I want to thank you both for answering my post it realy means a lot to me ..............I value your friendship .........take care .....God bless .....if you have questions just ask ...if I have not made my self clear .........thankyou ....
I dident relise it was so long I gess I needed to talk ......God bless