hard time

today woke up feeling bad sick and tired of not being able to walk and i am sick of it how i wish i could just get up in the morning and go walking,miss my job have loss so many friends after losing my leg and i want my life to go back to what is was so many people tell me i am lucky to be alive and that there are people worse of then me which of course i know but it doesn t make it any easier they just dont understand i still dont understand why it happen to me i am not a bad person so why????????? sick and tired of saying to people o well  its only a leg but i ts my leg i feel like if i complain how hard life is i am just being stupid and a sook ot even my dog can make me feel better today maybe i need to get away for good from my boys and partner dont know what to do just know i dont want this life anymore maybe i should just leave forever and then i wont be a burden on any of my family and i dont know why i am feeling like this but all i know its horrible i feel like burning my leg or thorwing it in the bin its brought nothing but pain i just waant my leg and life back please god help me