Hard day today
I've been in the hospital since yeaterday waiting to have a cerclage at noon today. I am happy that my baby is safe and that we're doing what's best, but why do I feel so sad? I cried quite a bit last night and this morning, being here in L&D brings back all the memories of losing Michaela. I miss her so much, I wish I could turn back time and was able to save her and she would be here with her mommy.
I also can't see my son because children aren't allowed in here so I have to wait until I leave. I miss him alty already, he had a hard time without me at home last night. He doesn't nuderstand why he can't visit me.
So I can't eat or drink, I'm starving, cold, depressed, and very anxious about the surgery becasue I'll be wide awake! I just want to sleep right through today and wake up at home to play with my son.
I also can't see my son because children aren't allowed in here so I have to wait until I leave. I miss him alty already, he had a hard time without me at home last night. He doesn't nuderstand why he can't visit me.
So I can't eat or drink, I'm starving, cold, depressed, and very anxious about the surgery becasue I'll be wide awake! I just want to sleep right through today and wake up at home to play with my son.
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Oh I can\'t imagine all the thoughts, feelings, and emotions going through you right now. Just try to stay positive and think you will be home with your son soon. You are in my prayers continuously, Hugs, Stacy
You\'re in my thoughts!
Thinking of you today and praying all goes well. Just remember, you are doing what is best to keep this baby safe and healthy. This will soon be over and you will be holding that precious baby in no time. You can do this!!
Thinking of you today and hoping that it goes by quickly. Don\'t worry you will see your son soon. Hugs!!
I\'ll be praying for you and your family, i pray this keeps your baby safe.
thinking of you at this time. Hang in there, my thoughts and prayers are with you, Suzy
I don\'t think it\'s unusual that you feel sad. I\'m sure it\'s just one of the many emotions you feel right now, with all that\'s going on and the recent news you got of your condition and bedrest...you\'ve had a lot put on your shoulders in the last couple of days. Just because you\'re sad right now doesn\'t mean you\'ve lost hope. I too will continue to have lots of hope for you and your son. I will be praying as well.
Big Hugs and Lots of Love
Thinking of you. Hoping and praying for you both. Try not to worry about tomorrow and just concentrate on today. Keep positive and know that we\'re all thinking of you. Lots and lots of hugs, Sam.
I\'m so sorry that you are going through this. It is very hard being back on the L&D unit. When I went for my steroid shots at 26 weeks I actually had to be admitted for them to do it. It was so overwhelming emotionally. I cried a lot (and I was only there for a few hours). Then I had to come back 24 hours later and do it again...only this time they had put me into the same room where Sadie had died. It was awful but eventually I found some peace. I will be thinking of you lots. Kelly
I was so sorry to hear your news --- you are certainly going through a lot right now. Wish I could be there to give you a hug. Please know that you\'ll constantly be on my mind in the months to come until you can bring home your baby boy safe and sound. Please take it easy --- Michaela will keep watch over you and her little brother. Hang in there!
hope everything works out Amanda. Thinking of you!
hey amanda...i am praying everything goes well! you are in my thoughts! HUGS