Hard day

 My husband has been on a binge since Thursday.  He came home for a few hours on Friday to basically sleep a couple of hours, take a shower and leave.  I didn't call him all weekend (not that it would have done any good).  Today he finally called me and asked if he could come get some of his clothes. I took it that he was moving out.  I told him that I was tired of his lack of responsibility and that I wasn't giving him any of his clothes.  I told him that I would rather throw them in the front yard and set them on fire than to give them to him! We have three children and he is worried about a change of clothes!!! Don't worry honey I will take care of the children and all of the bills!! You can go ahead and drink, act single and show no responsiblity!!  I Thank God that my children are great kids and that they have a mother that loves them more than anything!!! He will probably get his clothes - I am just disappointed! He was supposed to be in recovery... again!  He can't stay sober much more than 4 months. I know I can only control myself and no one else!  We have been through this many times over the years and I am just sad.  This is a person that knows me better than anyone else in the world.  Unfortunately, he is an alcoholic! I know that the kids and I will get through this.  I will take it a minute, hour or day at a time. It will get better!!!