I just need to vent...to give a brief synopsis...I bought concert tickets for my "husband" for our anniversary in early May for this group O.A.R. that he likes. It was before I knew about any of the emails and the affair still going on. Well the concert was tonight and I knew he was on-call at the hospital and didn't bother to ask if he wanted to go..figured I'd eat the cost of one ticket, scalp it, or give it away...and just go myself. Well, in the midst of a torential downpour and 90 degree weather, I still decided to stay at the concert...figured what the hell I had a babysitter and I would enjoy the music. Well, I get a text from his whore saying and I quote "Lisa-you know I'm here and I know you are here alone. I am with a friend from jh, if you want to join us? Just a thought..." WTF? Is she fucking crazy...like I would want to join her. Immediately I was in a texting war with said "husband" saying why does she know I'm here...it's none of her or anyone else's business, why does he need to tell her where I am. I told him this is the reason he needs to find a new place to live and pronto..kids or no kids I need my peace. I also said I am sick of being their topic of conversation and being made fun of and I hope they are happy I'm a joke. He said he told her I was there so we wouldn't run into each other and didn't tell her to text me..she took that upon herself. I was so hysterical crying, some poor girl was comforting me. I couldn't even enjoy the show. It's like she was trying to dig the knife in a little more being that I was alone. I have never been so humiliated in all my life. Then I'm leaving to go to my car and who do I see but her pulling out of the lot. I had to hide behind 2 security men before I went up to her car and pulled her out of it. Why are they doing this to me? All I want is to be left alone. I started to text her but did not....she is not worth my energy so I put all that anger and resentment into texting him on how I felt. That should give them something to talk about. I almost wrecked the car coming home 2x's. I should not have been driving being that upset and in the rain, but I have/had no choice. I have nobody to call and I need to do this on my own...being upset or not. This is what I have to look forward to...fucking harassment and them laughing at me and me being a joke. They can all go to hell! Sorry I'm a little angry. I called my mom and she gets mad at me..she doesn't know what to do for me but I cannot take it anymore. I'm one step away from a nervous breakdown and I can feel it. I just want this "Groundhog Day" to stop and for me to be left alone with my boys. Is that too much to ask? He continues to wreck me and any benign conversation ends up between them, as well. I can't take it...this is why I say NOTHING to him. I wish God would strike one of them, just so I can have a moment of peace...that is all I ask. For me to have a moment as to figure out where my life is going without having the OW in it.