happy=WEIRD

welllll i havne't been happy this long in a loooooong time....feeling this happiness is so...so...WEIRD.....i'm not used to this happiness or anything.....it feels so weird, but at the same time it feels sooooo good....i haven't smiled this mcu hadn my rapes are still kind of on my mind, but not as often.....i had a scary dream last night though....maybe that's a sign that this happiness is gonna be gone soon..??? i guess enojy it while i can!!!!!