Happy sweet treats tuesday! :) Gaining Strength from family, friends, nature :)

Happy sweet treats tuesday! :) Caramel iced coffee, and Iced Green Tea cheers! :) Hi angel friends :) We hope everyone is enjoying a great tuesday :) my mom, Lisa, Alyssa, and i enjoyed going to mcdonalds, and starbucks this morning to get some treats :) i got my first iced coffee in 2 months, plus i got a nice iced green tea to enjoy throughout the day :) it was refreshing, going out to get some treats :) We've had some rain in our area, but it's nearly 70 degrees today :) my dad's fixing up our greenhouse stand soon, and we were talking about gardening today :) We're gonna be planting some seeds in the greenhouse, as early as this upcoming weekend :) i'm doing well, and i'm proud of myself :) i'm thinking forward, i've also took some healthy time to reflect back, upon recent times :) i feel like, i'm getting healthier, and healing a bit, and i think i'm getting a bit stronger each day now :) i feel relaxed and my thoughts are coming into focus more :) The more i've talked/written about things, the more it helps me :) i'm having a positive start to the week :) been listening to the birds singing outside here :) i'm writing cards, finishing up a new letter, and looking forward to some gardening soon :) Tomorrow's super wednesday :) my mom and i are going to the post office, and i think i'll put some movies on tomorrow too :) Focusing on moving forward, more and more, each day. :) You all are helping me so much :) Thank you our dear angel friends :)
Treats, Treasures, Writings, and Spring time Nature :) my family and i are enjoying the day today :) one of our favorite days, and traditions, sweet treats tuesday :) With Kayla and Taylynn on school spring vacation now, they got to get some treats this morning :) my mom, Lisa, Alyssa, and i enjoyed going over to mcdonalds, and starbucks :) it was a refreshing car ride :) it's amazing, not needing any jackets, when going outside now, as it's in the 50's and 60's during the early morning, and made it up to about 70 degrees here today :) This is like, spring gardening weather/warmth :) it's so nice, and refreshing :) we even had our car windows open as we went to get treats :) i saw some spring flowers sprouts, by mcdonalds lawn area :) i think they were tulips :) At mcdonalds, Alyssa went in to get some treats for her and Taylynn, and my mom, Lisa, and i went through the drive-thru :) Lisa and i each got an iced coffee :) it's my first iced coffee since february 13th :) my mom got a breakfast sandwich, and i got a breakfast burrito :) We got hashbrowns for Kayla :) Alyssa got a breakfast sandwich for Taylynn :)
We drove over to Starbucks, and i got a nice iced green tea, and Alyssa got a caramel latte, her favorite :) it was really nice, going out, and i saw a squirrel, scampering along a fence :) it had began to rain a bit, which is a really nice nourishing rain for the plants, lawns, and trees :) The spring time nature, is really beginning to blossom more :) i feel my nature/garden spirit blossoming too :) i'm really looking forward to gardening with my dad :) Earlier, my dad was talking with me, about how he's gonna fix up our plastic/screen, for our mini greenhouse stand :) he has some nice plastic, he's gonna fix it up, and we're gonna begin to plant some seeds in the greenhouse, as early as this upcoming weekend :) we are stocked up on some nice garden seeds, and some peat moss planters, we also have organic soil from last year's garden season :)
Angel friends, i'm really looking forward, to blossoming into the garden season :) it's gonna be so nice, healing, soothing, and refreshing :) i want to get deep into the moments of the experiences, gardening :) i'm gonna feel it :) it's gonna be wonderful :) my dad pruning our fruit trees, and us talking gardening, and friends mentioning about their plants, and gardens too :) it's so nice, and has me motivated, and excited to begin some great gardening too :) the warmer weather, is dream-like weather :) for the longest time during winter season, it was below 15 degrees, cold, snowy, icy, and it felt like spring was a year ago, but as it's warmed up, it's gotten us into the spring fever :) it's nice, inviting, and special :) i love to hear about your plants, your plans for the garden season, and i'm really thrilled, that everyone's been hearing about and seeing, pictures of our spring plants growing :) when i first joined DS, back in 2007, once of the first things i shared about then, was my love for nature, and gardening, and as spring continues to flourish, i'm gonna be basing lots of journal writings, about gardening experiences, and sharing all about our 2015 garden journey :) it's amazing to think, about how this season, is our 9th garden season here on ds :) Each one, has had it's own, unique special qualities about it, that has made it special :) i love the sunflower dedications, and all of the upcoming times, to be shared, with family and friends :)
LOOKING FORWARD-HEALING-GOOD HEALTH BOTH MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY :) angel friends, this morning, i was talking with my mom and Lisa, and we're looking forward, to the upcoming month of May, Kentucky derby on May 2nd :) Lisa usually works almost each day, she only has wednesday's off, but she mentioned, that she wants to join us at the casino this year, for derby day, by taking a day off from work, switching her schedule, so she'll be able to join us :) This is gonna be so nice, and will be very fun for her to be able to join us :) We always look forward to derby day, and with Lisa getting to join us, we'll play the slots, and we'll also place bets on the derby, and will go to krispy kreme donuts to enjoy some treats :) this year, when we go to the mohegan sun, for derby day, i want to take lots more pictures to share with everyone, including some neat pictures of inside the casino/areas, where there's so many cool things to see :) it's gonna be nice, and a fun time :) i'm excited to share about how we're looking forward to this fun day :)
i've been doing well :) probably, as best i can right now, with my days :) it's been 18 days, long days at times, since holly broke up with me suddenly. i've had some sad days, some fairly ok days, and some good days too. i've kept to my schedule, routines, and have been filling in times with my days, best i can right now. it's only been 18 days, but i've had lots of time to think, time to reflect, both backwards, and forwards. it's been the healthy way for me to be able to cope each day. instead of dwelling on the sudden loss, i've thinked forward more, i've had some amazing talks with my mom, friends, and writing. i was shy, to join the breakups support group here on ds, but after reading a bit on the forums there, i finally built up some courage to join that support group here on ds, and posted about the experience, and have even talked with some members in that group, which has helped me too. i find, the more i talk about things, and the more i write about it, the more it helps me, to be able to find sense of it all, and to be able to begin to adapt, to new way of life for myself :)
A good friend of mine Judy (Ladybug7) and i had a good talk on the phone on sunday, and she mentioned about, how i'm beginning to see my days, and the world now, in a whole new view. Seeing things, in a whole new light. it's so true :) i can't even begin to describe, how much everyone has helped me, over the past few weeks, even the days leading up to being suddenly broken up, i've recieved such incredible support, guidance, encouragement. i've been doing things, the healthy way. i haven't heard back from holly at all, and the more i think about it, the more i realize, what i endured, what i went through, and i'm seeing now, paths, i need to take for myself, with family and friends, to get better, to heal, to get stronger. i thought about it, and i talked with my mom, friends. i decided, to write, a letter, to holly. a respectable letter, to express my feelings, my thoughts, and to stand up for myself.
i wrote the letter, which i'm proud i did, i stood up for myself, by writing out my feelings. it's a hard thing, but i did it, and i told my mom, and friends, writing that letter, i know is giving me some peace, and i know, it will bring me closure, to the whole situation i experienced. i've had tons of emotions. i think about how she hurt me, after all i did for her, i think of the good things, i did for her. i miss the times we shared and how she use too be. me writing a letter, it allowed me, to voice my hurt feelings, to voice my thoughts, and for me, to be able to not keep those feelings in, it helped me, to be able to express, and now, that i have, it's another step, toward me, beginning my journey, to healing. her not caring about my feelings, and emotions, is very selfish of her. i mentioned in the letter, about how i gave it my all, and i'm moving on. i a journey to moving on, from the whole situation. of course, i'll always have some feelings inside, and memories, but me talking, and my writings, it helps me to be able to cope, and to be able to finally take steps, toward healing, and that's what i want, it's what i deserve, it's what everyone deserves, after a hard breakup. now that i wrote, expressed, i can feel like it's all out of me now, and i won't feel the urge to write to her. less of my attention, and energy on her. day by day, i'll get stronger, and heal more :)
i've talked with my mom, and friends, about how, if the relationship was going bad, or if there were reasons, then it would be easier, to move on, and to begin healing, but in this situation, there weren't signs i was aware of, there wasn't anything bad going on, which makes it double heart-breaking, because it blind-sided me. many relationships, usually have a reason for a breakup, or why it ended, but for holly and i and the relationship we shared, which was continuing to blossom, all of a sudden, she ended it, without reason, without explanation, and that left me in the dark, only she knows why, and didn't say why, so it makes it more delicate, and more heart breaking for me, personally, because she and i shared so much, and something like that, you want it to last forever, but i may never know why. but, i do know, i'm a very blessed person, because my family, friends, members on the breakups forum, have been here for me, through the very first moments of this breakup, and each day, have been here, by my side, and helping me, and that's very comforting, and uplifting :) i'll forever be deeply appreciative, of the love, care, support, encouragement, and guidance i've recieved, to be able to cope, and make it through each day, looking forward to the next day :) when we invest so much into something, especially a relationship, that gets so close, and so deep, it does leave an empty feeling inside, but i'm doing healthy things each day, to fill in that void, and it gives me hope, that the more busy i keep, the more on track and balanced i keep, with my goals, and being the best i can be, for myself, family and friends, it reminds me, all is gonna be ok, because, i've got my family, friends, nature, and so much more to look forward too :)
We're having a nice sweet treats tuesday :) my family and i are doing well :) today for lunch, i enjoyed a nice salad :) it was delicious :) i've been finishing up some nice writings, here in my writing area :) i've written very special thank you cards, and also a letter, for my lovely ds mum (Bloss) :) we're gonna go to the post office tomorrow :) We love our super wednesday post office adventures :) i'm gonna put some movies on today :) since the breakup, wednesday's, and the weekends have been hard for me. so tomorrow, i'll be putting the movies on, throughout the day, writing, and i hope for some sunshine nature walks too :) keeping busy, and active each day, i'm on a good healthy balanced track :) Thank you angel friends, for being here fo rme and my family, and for all that you do, for my family and it :) it means the world to us :) We appreciate you all, with all of the love of our hearts :) BIG GROUP SUNFLOWER HUG :) i'm going to put a movie on tonight :) i look forward to my new funko mystery minis arriving in the mail :) There's lots to look forward too :)
-never lose hope :)
To Wildthing, Peaceful Gentle Moments of the day :) Wildthing, we enjoyed getting some treats today :) keeping with routines, and traditions :) writing cards, and looking forward to more sunny warm spring days :) Thinking of you, our dear friend :)
my mom says hi :) She says, "i hope everyone is having a nice day" :) my mom and i have been talking often, it's really good, and healthy for me :) We love you all lots and lots, our sweet dear wonderful guardian angel friends :) We hope everyone is doing well, and having a nice peaceful tuesday :)
My Writing Area! :) Angel friends, i've been enjoying decorating my writing area, for spring time, with a sunflower themed, all of our lovely cards, gifts, treasures, and dwelving into some nice writings :) it's really healthy for me :) i love my writing area :) very soon, i'm gonna be adding in, a new double fan, to my computer room window, to have some nice fresh spring air flowing into my computer room :) it's gonna be so nice :) my writing area is a special joy, and is bringing me lots of comfort :) it's a dedication, to my family and friends, who give me hope, strength, energy, and are keeping me motivated :) i've had a good writing week :) my mom and i are going to the post office tomorrow : )sending lots and lots of love, and happy friendship smiles across the miles, from our hearts, and home to yours :)





SIGNS OF SPRING! :) our weather cleared up, after some early rain :) it's so nice, to see the signs of spring all around our yard, and gardens :) i'm really looking forward to beginning to do some yard, and garden work :) maybe on thursday, if the weather is nice, i'll begin some :) i'm looking forward to it :) i took some new pictures today :)
Our Lilac bush, is beginning to show signs of grow :) We look forward to the beautiful flowers blossoming :)
Hyacinth's :)
Our Raspberry truellis garden :) Looking forward to the growing of the raspberry bushes :)
Our garden greenhouse stand :) my dad's gonna fix the plastic covering, for our greenhouse stand :) We'll be doing some planting :)
Happy sweet treats tuesday :) We enjoyed going to mcdonalds and starbucks this mroning, to get some nice treats :) We love these special traditions, and are holding close to them, during these times :) it brings a sense of balance :) it's very good, and healthy to have traditions like this :) Cheers! to family, friends, to healing, and to enjoying simple joys in life :)