Happy Super Wednesday! :) You all are giving me, Strength, Hope, and Energy :) having a good day! :)

Happy Super Wednesday! :) Family and Friends have got me thinking forward! :) awww! :) i so very much, want to give everyone a BIG HUG! :) i'm having a good, positive day today, and even went to the post office, for some very special deliveries, to our dear angel friends, all around the world :) Sending lots and lots of love :) We mailed a treasures package, and very special thank you cards :) i really had a nice writing week :) it's helping me a lot, to write, with all of my heart, in the letters, cards, and here in my journal :) Family and Friends are getting me focused on positives more and more, and i feel like things are falling into place again, with my days :) it's a good feeling, and today, i even got a bit busy, and i was like, "oh my, i gotta catch up here", and that was, a very good feeling for me to have :) To be busy, to feel like i've got lots to do, and i want to keep it flowing that way :) i even smiled a few times today, which is nice :) i'm on my way, it's gonna be a long healing journey, but having some glimpses of a good day, overall, and just being with family and friends here on ds, it's really day brightening, comforting, and uplifting :) my sister Lisa treated me to a peach iced tea this morning, from dunkin donuts :) i cooked a healthy lunch, and i'm also continuing to spring clean, and organize my computer room :) i know there's lots to look forward too :) Tonight, i'm keeping with my new goal, wednesday night movie night :) i'm selecting a movie to watch tonight, beginning shortly after 8pm :) every day, is gonna bring more and more healing, and more strength :) Thank you angel friends :) You all, are super mega sweet awesome :)
Hi angel friends! :) our most warmest friendship hugs, sent with lots and lots of love, from our hearts and home to yours :) We hope you all are doing well, and having a nice day :) i got some writing spirit blossoming within me right now, and i'm really thankful, to be having a good day, with family and friends :) my sister Lisa treated me to a peach iced tea this morning, and this evening, my niece Alyssa is cooking a nice dinner for us :) i feel like, recent days, i've been building up a little momentum with the flow of my days :) even today, i got a bit busy, i was writing, and my mom and dad wanted my help with something too, and i felt like, "oh my, i got lots to do here" :) hehe :) that was a really good feeling for me, and it really continues to give me hope, energy, and strength :) You all are helping me a lot, and i appreciate it very much :) Your uplifting, comforting comments on my journals, hugbook, messages, texts, and phone calls :) it's so nice, and comforting knowing you are there :) i'm here for you too angel friends :)
it warmed my heart up, to hear that you all enjoyed seeing my writing area :) i'm proud of my writing area, and how i've been decorating it :) i've also been spring cleaning my computer room, organizing it :) i want to be busy, i want to be active, and i feel like i have lots of direction, from family and friends :) i need this a lot right now, and it's keeping me on such a good path :) it's not been easy for me, and won't be for a while, but with family and friends, rallying around me, it gives me such an amazing hope, and strength, to keep on keeping on, and to make each day, a memorable one :) making new memories, taking care of myself, and making sure, i keep focused and motivated to enjoy special simple joys, like going to the post office, writing, sharing social interaction with family and friends, and the post office worker, and keeping myself, in tune with the days :) i'm a strong person, and i know with everyone rallying around me, continued support, guidance, and encouragement, i'm gonna be ok :) Somedays have been easier than others, some days have been rougher than others, but it's all part, of a healing journey, that i never imagined myself having to take, but like family and friends have told me, sometimes, life throws curveballs at us, and brings upon new paths, and journey's in our lives, that we can be a bit afraid of, but once we settle into some days, it reminds us, all is gonna be alright :) i'm feeling hopeful, positive, and i feel like i'm getting stronger :)
Today, my mom, Lisa, Alyssa, and i went to the post office :) We had a whole adventure this morning, not too long, but all in an hour span :) i've been looking forward to mailing a special treasures package, and special thank you cards to friends :) i put together our first, treasures package to be mailed to our friends in Brazil, and the thank you cards, are for friends, for my birthday :) i know right after my birthday, things got hectic, and that whole week, leading up to what i endured on the 27th of March, that devastated me, it got me so off-balance, and i felt so numb, and i still do at times, but i've been wanting to write cards, to thank everyone, for making my birthday very special :) over the course of the week, i wrote thank you cards, while thinking of my birthday on March 22nd, and how special you all helped make it :) i wrote the 1st set of cards, and wanted to take time to write the 2nd set of cards this week, to mail next week :) it took me a week to really get myself into a writing zone. i went from, such a feeling of happiness and joy, to a very deep sinking feeling of sadness, devastation, and numbness, all within a 5 day span. once my thoughts settled, i got the great spirit boost to write cards, and i wrote them with all of my love :)
This morning, we first drove Taylynn to school, and then stopped by mcdonalds, and Alyssa got her favorite caramel latte :) She mentioned she's cooking a nice dinner for us all this evening :) it's gonna be very nice :) i brought my peach iced tea with me, and was sipping it :) i was thinking of family and friends, all of these special deliveries :) i had, 13 cards, and a treasures package all ready to be mailed :) thinking of family and friends often these days, is helping me so much :) i know i've been down, not depressed, but down, and sad, and what's helped me a lot, is thinking of family and friends, and being my best for them, but also for myself, keeping myself, in good health, organized, and keeping up with each day, with my family and friends, that's my spirit motivation, each day to the fullest, and i know with time, i will get stronger, and my heart will heal :) i want to feel fully confident, and at peace again within my heart and spirit :) These are part of my new goals, adapting to new lifestyle each day now. new days, and adapting, this is what life is for me right now, and i'm dedicated, and motivating, to doing my best, and moving on, each day, no matter how long it takes, i'm gonna have spirit soaring super mega sweet awesome days again with family and friends :)
We took the turnpike route to the post office this morning, we arrived there, and my mom and i went inside the post office :) it wasn't busy :) only 1 other costomer there :) The worker called us up. :) we wished eachother a good morning :) social interaction, public speaking, always helps me, and during the times i've been experiencing, i've been keeping focused on progress i've made over the years, and how far i've come into my healing journey with my social therapy :) i'm doing good :) i'm proud of myself :) family, friends, have helped me make it this far into my therapy, and helping me achieve progress with my goals :) The worker weighed the package, and i then said, "may we have some stamps please", i bought 11 US stamps, and 3 International stamps :) my mom wanted 4 of the US stamps :) She gave me some dollars :) i did really well, with my social interaction :) the worker was talking with my mom, about her keys. my mom lost one of her sets of keys last week, and the worker remembered, and was happy to hear my mom ended up finding her set of keys :)
The post office experience went really well :) i feel very happy about the treasures and cards we mailed :) We gave the worker the money for the order, and she gave us the change and reciept :) my mom and i thanked the worker, and wished her a nice day :) She wished us a nice day too :) my mom and i put the stamps on the envelopes, and i then held the envelopes up to my heart, and i then put the envelopes into the mailing box :) Very special deliveries coming your way :) it was so nice, going to the post office :) i'm definitely ready for another nice week of writing :) i'm gonna write the 2nd set of thank you cards, plus i'm writing a letter for my lovely ds mum (Bloss) :) it's gonna be great to be able to do some more writing :) i'm finding nice time during the day, to write, and i get very excited, to mail these special cards, letters, and treasures :) on the way home, we brought my niece Alyssa home, and then arrived home :) We did drive past the peaceful pond, i didn't see the ducks, it's a bit chilly and cloudy today, but the pond always shines, with the beautiful nature :) Malerba's farm has put perennials flowers in front of their main area now, for their grand reopening for spring time :) it's gonna be really nice, to go there for our garden shopping during spring :) it's gonna be great :) i want to dwelve deeply into the gardening season, and i want to do some more writing this week :) We'll be going to the post office again very soon :)
i've been doing ok today, overall :) i see glimpses of more healing, taking place within me :) getting my feelings and emotions out, within writings, and talks, is helping me a lot :) my mom's been talking with me, and also friends too :) i feel like i'm not alone, and i have so many wonderful family and friends who love me, care about me, and are helping me on this healing journey that i didn't expect to have to endure, but am remaining very hopeful :) i go through all kinds of emotions. from sadness, to numbness, upset, frustrated, and then i have some good moments too. i've been continuing to take good care of myself, i'm eating well, and healthy. :) i also have been keeping up with my nature walks. i've been filling in the time at night time, when she and i usually talked, by watching movies.
i put a movie on after 8pm, and i just get into the movie, and it's nice. i have lots of hurt feelings, from the situation with holly, not just the 27th of march, but the days leading up to that, even months leading up to it, when i was there for her, always, every day, anytime she needed me. i feel abandoned by her. not just in a relationship sense, but in a friendship sense too, because the relationship she and i shared, was first built by becoming good friends, great friends, best friends, and eventually a couple. to go from, 1 day everything being ok, and the next morning, ending it all, it was so drastic on her part, that it stunned me. i've been thinking back to times shared, and all i went through, to help her. putting her 1st, always each day, way before myself. it was her, family, friends, then me. i talked with my mom about this, and how much i did for holly, being there for her emotionally so much. i feel kinda betrayed by her. after 12 days of no contact, no explanation, no apology, and she knew, how much it would hurt me, what she's done, and all of these days, causing my heart and spirit pain. for her to not even apologize, or explain, it really shows me, how much she truly didn't really care about my feelings, but only hers. i think she's selfish and rude. to care about, love someone so deeply like she always told me she loved me, and then to abandon me and what we shared like she did, it's hurtful. we were close for over 5 years. it truly is like a light switching off. i'm proud of myself for not trying to contact her. i have moments in recent days, where i think to myself, "she doesn't deserve my attention, and my energy". she doesn't. i know i've been hurt very deeply by her, but i deserve better, and didn't deserve to be treated like she treated me.my family and friends deserve my attention and my energy. part of me being able to move on, and letting go, is writing about this, and getting it out, it helps me to write. thinking of her less, and moving on, i know with each day, my heart will heal more and more :)
We're having a nice day :) my family and i are doing well :) i spent some time with my mom and dad today :) for lunch, i enjoyed some nice soup, and a baked sweet potato :) lunch was delicious :) i'm going to treat myself to a movie night tonight :) it's gonna be nice :) i'm keeping positive, active, and busy each day :) You all bring us lots of peace and joy :) Thank you angel friends, so very much, for all that you do for us :) We'll always be here for you all, our dear friends :) big group comforting sunflower hug :) There's many more good days to look forward too :)
-never lose hope :)
To Wildthing, Peaceful Gentle Moments of the day :) Wildthing, it's a nice day, gaining strength, focus, and motivation :) i'm ready for another nice writing week :) Thinking of you, our dear friend :)
my mom says hi :) She says, "i hope everyone is having a good day" :) awww! :) Angel friends, we love you all lots and lots :) Thank you for brightening our days :) We hope everyone is enjoying a peaceful wednesday :)
Signs of Spring! :) nature healing :) i went out to check in on our sprouts this late afternoon :) it's wonderful to see the signs of spring out there :) it gives me hope, strength, and keeps me motivated and excited for the upcoming days of gardening season :) i want it to be a season of gardening healing :) it's going to be so nice to share, and to celebrate it to the fullest each day :)
Daffodils :)

Hyacinth's :) 


Daffodils :) 


Tulips :) 
hi angel friends, i'm slowly, gradually getting into the swing of things with my days :) i'm going to share in my journal tomorrow, about some lovely cards, and treasures my family and i recieved :)