Happy New Year to Me!

2012 will be 5 years since you left the man who could not value you and four years since your divorce. Look at you now! Going from a stay-at-home mom and doing everything for a man who belittled you on a daily basis to living on your own. You may not have someone to bring you medicine or hot tea when sick; but you also don't have someone telling you what a lazy bitch you are for not fixing him food. You are flourishing in your new life! Your son is an amazing young man who knows the trials and tribulations you encountered. Your daughter is a cutie pie with such a good, caring heart...you did good momma! Will you ever trust a man again or open your heart up to even date...wish I could tell you the answer! Betrayal from a man of 20 years who had unprotected sex with his cousin's wife is uncomprehensible..he didn't care that you stayed at home watching his two children while he was getting his jollys. Remember to stay true to yourself and your values....God will always be by your side when you are struggling. So your ex-husband brought another woman into his life so your 13 daughter can see. Yes, he never could do anything on his own...I can't judge her but wish she would see the red flags. While he took her and my daughter for New Years it broke your heart...What is wrong with me? How could he be so uncaring to me who gave him 20 years of my life? Oh well....smile...his loss. So he tells me that women expect him to sleep with them after three dates! What??? Where is he looking for these women at? The red light district??? HA HA HA! Anyway, stay strong girl...you are free from this man who called you a bitch and cu** for forgetting refried beans at the store. Your kids don't have to walk on egg shells anymore and you did what you had to do...Be free and enjoy this amazing new year ahead...

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CowgirlKathi
CowgirlKathi

The best part of your journal entry is the beginning - where you give yourself a big pat on the back for finding your way in this new normal -- being independent and self-reliant. The rest of the healing takes awhile, but you are well on your way. I am very proud of you!
Atpeacemary
Atpeacemary

I know it is a little late, but way to go girl. When you see him, do what I do. I shrugged my shoulders, smiled and slowly walked away giggling Stay strong and be happy, best revenge we have.