Happy monday! :) feeling better after writing, talking :) new garden pictures :) good day :)

Happy monday! :) Thank you angel friends :) it's a good day :) Holly and i enjoyed some nature walks, picked some string beans, and checking in on our plants :) We're gonna get treats in the morning, and i also have some updates on our plants for tomorrow, and the days ahead. Thank you all for your wonderfully comforting support, it means the world to us <3

Hi angel friends :) my family, Holly,and i hope everyone is doing well, and having a peaceful day,and a good start to the new week :) Thank you for your comforting comments, support,guidance,and prayers :) it means the world to us :) i'm so glad, and thankful i wrote this morning, it was very theraputic for me to write :) Writing like that, always helps to open up pathways for my thoughts to flow better :) It's a good day today,and building on days like this, truly helps out in the long run :)when i wrote this morning, i kinda felt like i was not only writing for myself, but for others too, as there's lots of us here, who have the same thoughts, feelings, and emotions going on. all the support, guidance, and prayers helps us very much :) we'll forever be grateful, and appreciative :) Holly and i went out for some nature walks earlier, checking in on our plants, and also picked some nice string beans :) They are growing plentiful in our garden, along with more yellow squash, snap peas, and we have lots more banana peppers to pick this week too :) Holly and i will make some more pickled banana peppers :) We're getting really good at pickling the peppers :) They are awesome, and taste just like the store ones :) Welove our garden :)

my mom,Holly,and i had some good talks today, we have really needed to talk about some things going on, and how to handle approaching upcoming social situations in our family. it's unfortunate, to have to have these types of talks, before birthday's, and gatherings, but is necessary, as i believe it's part of the healing, and comfortability going forward. i talked with my mom and Holly about how sometimes, it's very sad, how other's actions, can have a huge impact in so many ways, on others. it feels unfair, when this happens,and having to feel a bit on edge,anxious. i mentioned in my journal earlier, personally what i've been experiencing,from the fallout of the incident on july 30th.

my nephew Mikey's birthday is tomorrow. jenn has invited some of us, including Holly and myself. it's going to be at the park here in our city. Mikey's turning 10, and has had almost all of his birthday's at the park. what matters to us all the most, is that Mikey has a fun birthday, he deserves it, and the kids deserve to have fun :) family friend Wayne, my mom, dad, i myself have decided i will go, Holly has been having severe PTSD, from the incident, and has reminded her of some awful incidents in her past. as much as i wish Holly was gonna be there with me, i understand, her ptsd, and how it affects her. i talked with her for a good hour earlier, and i told her, there's no upsetness, that she's not going, it's her health, and well being of emotional health,and that the only thing any one can be upset about, is the fallout, of many different feelings, and emotions that jenn caused, that's what's very unfortunate about it all, that her actions,led to some not gonna be there tomorrow, including Holly, who is very cool with everyone,and has absolutely no hard feelings, toward anyone, it's her PTSD, and her not being ready yet, to be around either my sister jenn, or brother inlaw mike.

i told Holly, she has all of our support, and that's comforting to her. Kayla isn't doing, Lisa is working, and Bobby and family won't be able to go, as Bobby's working, and Alyssa is working, she and family won't be able to go. my brother Charlie and niece Taylynn will be going. for me personally, i will do my best, i don't think jenn will talk much to everyone, she should be fully focused on Mikey having a fun birthday. that's what matters to all of our hearts :) i will miss having Holly there with me, she helps me a lot, at the gatherings, even when everything is smooth sailing, it can still be tough to be around big gathering, and having shyness, and social anxiety. Holly's and Kayla have never missed a gathering, and them both not being there, it saddenes my heart, because of jenn's actions on July 30th, and the fallout from it all. i'll text with Holly, friends, and will do the best i personally can there tomorrow. :)

it's a big time for family events, and even a new one, that will be on August 15th. We have the triplets birthday on August 11th, wednesday. Alyssa, family are going to the six flags, and we'll give the kids some birthday cards with gifts, on wednesday :) August 14th, we have Taylynnn's birthday party, there's some issues with what's gonna happen, due to the fact that we having the party here, Mikey, Hunter, and Carter are close with Taylynn, and Kayla is too, so my mom is trying to sort all of that out. Sunday,August 15th, we're going to Alyssa's and family's home. Alyssa and her longtime partner, Aj, are newlyweds now. Alyssa and Aj eloped! they are having a gathering, to celebrate. it's a big week. i'm planning to do my best, with everything, from being in the moments, writing, sharing, and will roll with the days best i can. this week, will probably be anxious for me, the severity level of my anxiety, i don't know, but i will do my best. i'm bringing my stamps magazine tomorrow, my cell phone, and will be there for Mikey's birthday. :)

Holly and i both are very firm set, on setting good healthy boundaries for ourselves, when it comes to any family drama that can come up at times. i am the one who usually gets vacuumed into it, and it's had a big impact in a negative way, on my peacefulness. i'll continue to personally, not overdo things, and will remember to put my own health, not just physical health, but mental health too. stress is awful, and has an unbelievable impact on our health. i went through a lot of feelings last week, a lot of emotions of feeling victime guilt, the emotional trauma symtpoms, i've tried to keep focused, and in the moments of the days, but i think all that happened on july 30th, it spun my head, and made me feel like this complete, unable to get balanced fully, type of feeling. i believe sometimes ,we have to distance ourselves, from any times of drama that tends to pull us in, and can make us feel frazzled. it's part of life, but the learning of coping techniques, and being able to pull back, is best thing we can do. i feel personally, very deeply embedded in the thoughts of, jenn should apologize to my parents first and foremost, and to others in our family, everyone who lives here. her actions, on July 30th,nothing good came out of it, absolutely nothing, and nothing was gained,only hurt caused. i'm not sure, if she ever will, but it would be a really good start. to know, that both Holly and i were invited to Mikey's birthday, that's enough for us to know, maybe she's got some thoughts of regret, and that she didn't mean for everyone to get anxious, and stressed, along with traumatizd by her actions. hopefully she will improve,and that we'll all be able to feel as comfortable as we can be again,when she's here, or when she and family have gatherings. my mom did something special for Holly and i. on July 30th, one of the food platters Holly and i used, for our meals, for lunch, dinner, it was smashed in our kitchen during the melee, and was very upsetting to see pieces of it. my mom bought a new platter, for Holly and i, it touched our hearts, that my mom did that for us <3

Thank you angel friends, for all of your support, and for being here for us :) i know it's been quite the times lately, and some ups, downs, and times when we just needed to emotionally breathe. i'm very thankful for DS over the years, and everyone's wonderful support of comforting and uplifting care <3 we're having a good day, and looking forward to more :) i think each day forward, things will get better, but time will tell the story of how the path goes when it comes to how my sister jenn handles things. we can guide our own paths, to make sure, any times ahead that gets rough, we're able to steer clear of it, so our path doesn't take us to a u-turn of confusion, and anxious times. we all deserve much peace. we've got lots to look forward too :) Holly and i are going to watch our show tonight, and also gonna go out early to get treats tomorrow :) we're keeping with all our daily routines, traditions, and gonna continue to keep on keeping on, each day :) You all are wonderful dear angel friends :) You all sharing your days with us, brings us all lots of peacefulnes, of comfort, and helps us keep balanced with our days :) Thank you our dear angel friends :) <3

PRAYERS REQUEST. angel friends, we have a special prayers request, for our dear friends Debbie (Sunsetyellow2), her husband John, and their family. Debbie's cousin and his wife, passed away. they need our love, prayers, and support, as they cope, through this very sad and tragic time. You all are like family to us here on DS over the years, we all feel for eachother's hearts. please keep Debbie, John, and their family in your thoughts, and prayers. thank you angel friends. big group caring comforting friendship hug <3 Debbie, John, family, our deepest sympathy, and condolences go out to you all, during this very sad time <3

-never lose hope :)

To Wildthing, Peaceful Gentle Moments of the day :) Wildthing,Holly and i enjoyed some nature walks, and picked some fresh string bean today :) We're gonna get some treats tomorrow at mcdonalds :) Thinking of you, our dear friend :)

my mom says hi :)She says, "i hope everyone is doing well, healthy, and enjoying a nice day" :) awww! :) We love you all bunches and bunches, our sweet dear wonderful guardian angel friends :) We hope everyone is doing well, healthy, and having a peaceful day :) We think of you all often, and are so thankful and blessed to have you all in our lives :) Thank you all for always being here for us <3

Greetings, from  our Summer time garden! :) Holly and i enjoyed some nice nature walks today, and picked some string beans :) We love harvesting fresh garden goodies :) Our plants are doing very well, growing and flourishing :) we love these golden days of summer and the gardening season :) it's a big part of our balance, enjoying our garden, nature walks, and looking forward to lots more adventures :) i'm very happy to share my new garden and nature pictures :) 

Morning Glory flowers :) They are blossoming all around our yard, and garden areas :) 

Cosmo flower :) our first of the season :) 

The bees love the flowers :) 

Sunflower blossoming :) 

Zinnia's :) 

Banana peppers :) 

Yellow squash :) 

Popcorn plants :) We have some morning glory flowers, and marigolds growing amongst the popcorn planters :) 

Woodpecker :)