happy joyous and free
well today i feel happy joyous and free just got back of my holiday it was brilliant but to start with, but a bottle of wine and chocolates was left on the table from a previous manager who had stopped for 1 night i thought nothing really of it for a hour or so but soon i felt i was staring at it a little to long so i went for a walk and yep i picked the phone up and had a chat with my sponsor we had a natter i dont talk much lol then of i went on my merry way to the spa sanctuary should be called heaven when i sat in one of the sauna rooms i realised just how much each and every day has meant to me since stopping to be free of alcohol for another day not to be gripped by a need for another not to be thinking of alcohol 24/7 saying just one more or the inevitable that i always said i'll stop on monday even when it was a tuesday i'd be saying i'll stop monday or ill stop after tonight and then no more of course that never happened i never dreamed i could live life without alcohol and be this happy i thought once i or anyone stopped that there life would be dull and boring how wrong i was :0) i feel most days i am getting stronger in many ways while i was away in the sweetie shop oh handmade chocolate etc hmmmmmm there was samples i picked one up was just about to eat it and could smell alcohol she said hmm rum and raisin i just laughed and said i only like the raisin she laughed but showed must be a little carefull at times anyway i still managed a bag full of safe chocolate thats if kate and rose dont find my stash lol still learning the sharing bit :0) while i was sat in spa i realised how much stronger i was thinking back how i was a little frustrated with the wine but i picked the phone up and spoke aloud i know ill never be safe to pick up ever i lead a perfectly normal happy life and can achieve anything i want in life if i work my program and keep the drink away from this little santas helper today HAPPY JOYOUS AND FREEPEACE AND LOTS OF LOVEXXXXXXXXXXXXXMARKY
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