Happy Joyous And Free

Hi i must write more on here i often have so much to say but i just bottle it up and yet i know its good to express my happiness or when im feeling sad today is day 402 i still cant believe it i have family members who think that im ok lol well i am ok just for today :0) today was one of them days where i sat and thought how 13 months ago i was pissed and ohhh just hating myself remembering that i was drinking and it just wasnt doing what it did when i was alot younger it never god rid of the pain i felt or made me happy anymore i often drank to change the way i felt but it just didnt do that for me anymore my last days of drinking sat holding a can saying please god i dont wanna be like this anymore please someone help me as i write this im listening to music feeling happy joyous and free and yep crying im so happy to feel free from the pain drink caused me  i truly truly cant believe how strong i feel and often never think of drink except when at meetings or on here what im saying is i dont think of it 24/7 anymore people often and still do say it gets better and better believe me it really does i look forward to the day i will be a sponsor for someone i love you all on here im doing a 10k run up in scotland next week with a AA member my best bud today i now see my true friends in life friends i love and worship something ive never had in my life today the rooms still astonish me it saved my lifegod bless you all keep it in the day tonight i put my head to the pillow another dayhappy joyous and freexxxxxxxxx