Happy Holidays

LifeLife is a great thing. We have one life and one life only. We have to enjoy it the best we can. Even on the down shitty days I try to keep my chin up. It is so hard though. Today is a pretty good day. I am just hanging out at home. Went to the ER this past friday. I thought I was having asthma issues again but found out after having test done, that I have phumonia. So I am on meds for that. I am slowly feeling better. Coughing a lot but nothing is really coming up. It can take up to a month for me to get better. It just takes time and I am ok with that. One day at a time. Grad school is on hold right now. I have some things  that I need to work on...like my braille. The grad school program director and I talked. It was really a positive experience. She was very helpful and helped me understand what I can do to get into the program. I just feel right now that I am hitting a lot of bumps in the road in life. Trying to find the right way to go. I feel that I am not succeeding. I really want that in life and I am just hitting bricks walls right now. It really sucks but I know I can do something. Just have to figure it out. Get a job for now. Write goals or a list or something where I can see what I want and life and just what I want for my life job wise. Ya know? oy. All my friends seem to be doing well. They are working, getting married, having babies, looking for a speical someone, living life. So many things and I hope they know that I love them all and am so proud of all of them. I always have your backs. HUGSSSSSSSS Holidays are nice so far. Gonna decorate for xmas tomorrow. Take all the Thanksgiving stuff down. I have been delayed on that since I have been sick. argg. thanksgiving was nice. Heather and I went to my dads for a bit. It was nice for her to meet some of my family. She met my aunt and uncle, two half sisters, some neices and nephews and my great neice. My great neice is a month old. So cute. Awwww. Then Heather and I went to my mom's. We ate there and had fun time with mom. Just hanging out and digesting. hee hee. Then the next day on (black friday) mom, heather and I went shopping. Yes we did get up early and were at the store by 4:45am. Mom and I do this every year. Now Heather has joined up.  I can not believe how fast the holidays are coming. Christmas is here in 18 days..AHHHHHHHH. I have to wrape gifts, send out a b-day gift, and finish mom's gift. I am making her a quilt. shhhh. I have Kim to thank for that. She has been so helpful. It means so much to have her help. this is a new year coming. We will see what it brings.  Grandpa Charlie died this past month. He was my adopted grandpa whom I have knowen since I was little. I miss him a lot. I am gonna see if I can get a pic of him. I do not have one. He was a awesome man. Sweet, gentle, funny, a fix it man, fishing lover, outdoors man, loved his family very much.  this year has been full of death, weddings and a few babies. I hope this next year will have so much job. As long as we have family, friends and our health we need nothing else. thats it for now. Later.