Happy Halloween!
Today is Geo's birthday as well. We had a good day.. I went to work and he slept for the most part. I went in early, since I woke up and it looked like it was going to be raining soon, so I hurried up and got ready and went in. It was a rainy day today, and so I didn't want to walk to work in the rain. I'm listening to Geo's review of “The Exorcist”, he did a 31 day marathon of horror movie reviews on YouTube. It's kinda distracting, but it's good. Okay, it's over with. Geo and I just had cake. I didn't sing for him, though... I'm wondering if I should have. Oh well... he already ate his cake, so it's over and done with now. He's playing his video games now. They also celebrated birthdays today at work, so I took him home a cupcake. He enjoyed that too.
Mood today was really good... I'm loving life today. It's my favorite day of the year. I almost went to work in a blond wig as Paula Deen, but I didn't. We had some kids come to our door, but we didn't have any good candy to give them, so we didn't answer. I've been preparing for Geo's birthday and forgot to get candy to pass out. It's okay... we didn't have that many kids come knocking. I'm all hypomanic right now, I can feel it. I'm having all this energy rushing through me... I hope I can sleep tonight. I slept well last night- I got like 13 hours and it was all good sleep. I woke up a bunch of times, but I fell asleep easily and woke up fine. I even had good dreams- I dreamed of Geo and work. I know it's funny that I say work is a good dream, but I really like it there and it's helping me out a lot, so I don't see why it's a bad thing.
Work today was good. I saw that they had a position open for the job they want me to do, so I applied. I hope I get the job... it's part time and everything, so we will see. I was one of the first people to apply for the job, so I will see if I get called back. I hope I do. I haven't told both of my bosses yet, just the one I saw today. She's supportive of me getting that position, and so should my other boss. I already took and passed the typing test, so I don't have anything holding me back. I hope I get called in for an interview. I don't know how well I interview, but I know that I can do the job they want me to, so it's not a problem. Plus, I'm in-house already and the bosses know me and know I'm a good worker. I think I have more going for me than a person coming in off the street, but less than another person coming from the same health center trying to transfer. Anyway, I hope I get the job so I can start working... I'm ready to start getting my life back.
I've been on disability for almost a year now... it will be a year on November 14th. I think that's a long time for me to not be working. I want something on my resume for the year of 2011 so I have to get a job soon. I want so many things... I want money to be able to get things I want, a car, things like that. I know getting a job is going to help with that, and if I get a job at the clinic I can do that. I don't want to work anywhere else right now... I don't think I would do as well emotionally and it would lead to my downfall. I need to be in the right environment and with the right people to be productive and prosper. I do want to get off disability, and I know working at the clinic is the first step in the right direction. I know being self-supportive again will do wonders for my self-esteem. I need to be able to support myself and Geo, and I know I can do that, I just have to get my mind together. The medications I've been on this year have been working so far, but I have to be diligent in taking them. I'm learning to take my pills every day, twice a day and it's going good so far.
Food today was good... I was in my calorie range, even though we had pizza for dinner. It was yummy! I like being low on my calories sometimes, that means I can eat crap for dinner or whatever. I don't know if I will have any left over for breakfast tomorrow, but I'm also planning on going into work early again so I don't know what is going to happen with breakfast. I might have some ramen or something. Stress was non-existent today... I didn't feel stressed at all. I was just loving life! Mood is good, even if I am a bit hypomanic (which means I'm feeling better than I should, and that I have to be careful tonight so I don't go too high so when I come back down I don't crash). Sleep was good, and today was just a great day!
Mood today was really good... I'm loving life today. It's my favorite day of the year. I almost went to work in a blond wig as Paula Deen, but I didn't. We had some kids come to our door, but we didn't have any good candy to give them, so we didn't answer. I've been preparing for Geo's birthday and forgot to get candy to pass out. It's okay... we didn't have that many kids come knocking. I'm all hypomanic right now, I can feel it. I'm having all this energy rushing through me... I hope I can sleep tonight. I slept well last night- I got like 13 hours and it was all good sleep. I woke up a bunch of times, but I fell asleep easily and woke up fine. I even had good dreams- I dreamed of Geo and work. I know it's funny that I say work is a good dream, but I really like it there and it's helping me out a lot, so I don't see why it's a bad thing.
Work today was good. I saw that they had a position open for the job they want me to do, so I applied. I hope I get the job... it's part time and everything, so we will see. I was one of the first people to apply for the job, so I will see if I get called back. I hope I do. I haven't told both of my bosses yet, just the one I saw today. She's supportive of me getting that position, and so should my other boss. I already took and passed the typing test, so I don't have anything holding me back. I hope I get called in for an interview. I don't know how well I interview, but I know that I can do the job they want me to, so it's not a problem. Plus, I'm in-house already and the bosses know me and know I'm a good worker. I think I have more going for me than a person coming in off the street, but less than another person coming from the same health center trying to transfer. Anyway, I hope I get the job so I can start working... I'm ready to start getting my life back.
I've been on disability for almost a year now... it will be a year on November 14th. I think that's a long time for me to not be working. I want something on my resume for the year of 2011 so I have to get a job soon. I want so many things... I want money to be able to get things I want, a car, things like that. I know getting a job is going to help with that, and if I get a job at the clinic I can do that. I don't want to work anywhere else right now... I don't think I would do as well emotionally and it would lead to my downfall. I need to be in the right environment and with the right people to be productive and prosper. I do want to get off disability, and I know working at the clinic is the first step in the right direction. I know being self-supportive again will do wonders for my self-esteem. I need to be able to support myself and Geo, and I know I can do that, I just have to get my mind together. The medications I've been on this year have been working so far, but I have to be diligent in taking them. I'm learning to take my pills every day, twice a day and it's going good so far.
Food today was good... I was in my calorie range, even though we had pizza for dinner. It was yummy! I like being low on my calories sometimes, that means I can eat crap for dinner or whatever. I don't know if I will have any left over for breakfast tomorrow, but I'm also planning on going into work early again so I don't know what is going to happen with breakfast. I might have some ramen or something. Stress was non-existent today... I didn't feel stressed at all. I was just loving life! Mood is good, even if I am a bit hypomanic (which means I'm feeling better than I should, and that I have to be careful tonight so I don't go too high so when I come back down I don't crash). Sleep was good, and today was just a great day!
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Happy you had such a great day! Good luck on the job i hope you get it! Wow it dont seem that long that you got approved for disablity.... really a year in Novemeber? Time sure does fly cause it just seems like yesterday that it was approved i remember how much of a struggle it was for ya. Youve done so good in this last year really worked hard to get healthy! So proud of ya! Hope Geo had a Happy Birthday! Huggggzzz nite