Happy Easter

Today I went to sleep at 7am and got up at 1pm, then planted a bunch of seeds and cleaned the outdoor A/C unit to prepare for the summer heat.  Repaired rotten wood out front and got some house painting (exterior) started.  We got McDonalds for or one meal today.  I gave everyone a small basket of candy.  Thats all! My husband is off for vacation starting next Saturday.  We cant afford to go up north to visit so we are going to see my parents in Florida for a week.  Maybe I will come back with a tan.  I am worried that I wont be able to sleep at night there too, but they have lots of activities planned for us so maybe I will get warn out and be able to sleep. My entire body itches and my elbows and knees are aching.  My lower back hurts.  I dont do much and sure end up hurting bad.  I had to take several breaks because my back was hurting so bad.   Today - just like any other day, was the same.  For the last several days my hubby & I have not been able to get along and I have been stressed trying to decide if I should end it and also loose my home, or what I should do.  I am miserable.  I realized that I need attention and when I dont get any I try to get it from others.  I am not talking about sex - just attention.  To feel like I matter.  I really dont see how I will ever feel good again.  Seems the only time I feel good and am able to be thin is when i am single.  I really feel like I am just rotting away here.  Tired as hell yet cant sleep.