happy days

just noticed tonight im up to 420 days wow i remember in the early days how i counted the hours up and each and every day, ive just been reading my early journals on how i was feeling and struggling at times but the main thing was i was living in the day just as i do now, i just cant express enough how my life has changed from keeping away from the drink i know people say it and i just hoped it was true well it is dont get me wrong i have shit days but there never as bad as those ohhh horrid times of drinking you know when you are drinking but its just not doing what it did years ago i never really got pissed after years of heavy drinking my body was drunk but my mind was sober do you get me on that i remember drinking at work and thinking ill have one more can then ill ring the boss god i used to have a fair few before i rang him then my words was all gibberish but my thoughts where normal i couldnt speak just slurring  tonight i am physically tired out ive been to gym and ran a fair few miles i was so tired i had to sit outside but i realise im pushing to hard and need to slow down i spoke to my sponsor tonight you when your thinking shall i phone them yes no yes no and the phone is 10 tons so you wont pick it up lol well i phoned him and told him how im feeling etc and im so pleased i did he is going to book me in to go to a retreat next febuary for 3 days im looking forward to it hopefully god willing ill look at this just before i go and will still be sober then :0) a day at a time peace and love to you allhappy days xxmarky markxx