Happy birthday and good bye

So today marks 9 years Ashley hasn't been here as well as the 50th that I hve been here. Doesn't seem right definately not fair but as they say life goes on...Todaywewent to Ashleys grave which I haven't been in awhile what once was something I had to be everyday now is harder and harder to go. Guess cause I have had toaccept Ashley will never be coming back. Shewill never smile at me again hang on me nothing  ever again. Today I went out with family and tried to "enjoy" myself. Worked for awhile...Ashley wish you were stiil here. You will never know how muchwe mish you! And love you!