Happy Birthday Mom :(
Happy Birthday Mom...this is your first birthday no longer with us. I miss not being to call you this morning and sing like we did for each other for so many years. I knew this day was coming but hit me much harder than I thought it would.
One thing I am realizing is as my pain from my breakup moves further away I can grieve your loss now. Having both happen so close to each other put me in grief overload.
I felt so guilty with my thoughts constantly going back to your ex daughter in law as I had to deal with your passing and packing and donating your belongings and wrapping up the end of your life. I'm so sorry for that. As I sit here remembering you and your general awesomeness I can't stop the tears from welling up. At least I'm not consumed with thoughts of my ex anymore and can remember you properly on this your birthday.
I love you Mom. I'm so sorry you left so soon.
One thing I am realizing is as my pain from my breakup moves further away I can grieve your loss now. Having both happen so close to each other put me in grief overload.
I felt so guilty with my thoughts constantly going back to your ex daughter in law as I had to deal with your passing and packing and donating your belongings and wrapping up the end of your life. I'm so sorry for that. As I sit here remembering you and your general awesomeness I can't stop the tears from welling up. At least I'm not consumed with thoughts of my ex anymore and can remember you properly on this your birthday.
I love you Mom. I'm so sorry you left so soon.
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Oh sweetie. I can only imagine how hard this day is for you. I know how blessed I am to still have my parents with me at 80 yrs old. Please, please let go ( if you haven\'t ) any guilt you felt when she passed away because you were going through what you were with your ex. I can tell by your words how much you love your mom and gosh she sure did do a good job of raising such a wonderful son. Happy birthday to your mom and I know she\'s looking down from Heaven and is so proud of you. Comforting hugs
sweetie.
Gaye
Thanks Gaye means a lot.
You\'ve been through a tremendous amount of loss. I\'m sorry to hear of your loss of you mother, but it is clear you have much love for her. Grief doesn\'t come all at once, as losses sometimes do, so don\'t feel any guilt over grieving your loss of your Ex at that time. You will grieve in your own time, and your mother knows how much you love her. Happy birthday to her, and hugs to you. Be gentle with yourself. You deserve it.
Hugs Coop! It is a hard day. My mom passed away 4 months before my ex left and I don\'t feel I was able to properly mourn her death either. I go visit her grave on occasion just to chat with her about my life. I\'m glad you have moved on so well and I\'m sure your mom knows of your love and care for her, please don\'t have ANY regrets Coop, you did just fine then and you are doing just fine now!!! Our mom\'s are always a part of us, she is proud of you and glad you\'re finding your way towards a better, happier life. Hugs~~~
Thanks Pam and Lost..yes it\'s a hard day but hopefully the grief will let me find some closure. I know I always felt better after getting it out after the split, helped me in the long run. I\'ve been told this would happen, I would eventually grieve her once I got over my ex and it\'s true and I\'m thankful that I now can.
Hugs, I know how hard it is. Words cannot describe the pain. Lots of hugs and prayers, my friend. I know that they do not want us to grieve so much. Please look after yourself.
Thanks Knuckle, hope your doing ok
Kbb-Happy Birthday to your wonderful Mom. She is certainly looking down on you filled with pride. I hope your wonderful memories comfort you today.
so sorry to hear this.. but I\'m also glad to hear your feeling like your in a place to finally grieve.. I truly can\'t imagine the combined pain of divorce and a loved one passing so close together.. we\'re always here to listen..
Hey Coop, Happy Birthday to your Mother. Hang in there my friend.
I am sending you all my prayers as you remember you beloved mother on her birthday. I also lost my dear father and had my husband leave in the same year. It is so much loss for one person to take on at one time and I understand your pain.
Hugss and prayers to you my dear friend.
Sandy