Happy Belated Easter!
I'm sorry that I didn't get a chance to write yesterday but very busy but nice weekend! Yesterday was Easter and I went the gym and cooked and the kids came over along with Steve for dinner....then the guys went the Bulls game so Lauren and Christian and I hung out! He is getting to be quite the little man! So sweet....
Tony has been "reaching" out to me....we texted and then spoke week before last and he asked me to have lunch with him but I was out of the office that day. So then I get a text from him this past Friday to see if I would like to meet him for a drink....had to really really think hard about that one. I don't feel comfortable with it but yet there are so many things that I feel were left unanswered for me. Perhaps that is a big part of why emotionally I haven't been able to move forward. I feel good about everything in my life but of course would want to be able to find someone to share my life with.....having him reach out feels good from the aspect of not wanting to go back with him but just in finding some "peace" for myself that we can be cordial....that's all I ever wanted. Anyway...I put him off on Friday telling him that I didn't feel well which was partially true because I went to dinner with Trish and my meal was awful! Then I get a text from him yesterday saying Happy Easter.....certainly very nice. I told him on Friday via text that I didn't feel comfortable in meeting him and he said he wasn't worried about it so why should I! So Tony....I told him that I felt it was deceitful and that is not how I want to live my life....
Anyway...UGH for sure. Have I opened up a can of worms? Can this person not just take that I'm not interested in going back into a relationship? I'm really not....perhaps I need to be a little more "direct" in my wishes...
All and all.....I feel pretty good! So many other things to be so thankful for...definitely!
Baci...
Tony has been "reaching" out to me....we texted and then spoke week before last and he asked me to have lunch with him but I was out of the office that day. So then I get a text from him this past Friday to see if I would like to meet him for a drink....had to really really think hard about that one. I don't feel comfortable with it but yet there are so many things that I feel were left unanswered for me. Perhaps that is a big part of why emotionally I haven't been able to move forward. I feel good about everything in my life but of course would want to be able to find someone to share my life with.....having him reach out feels good from the aspect of not wanting to go back with him but just in finding some "peace" for myself that we can be cordial....that's all I ever wanted. Anyway...I put him off on Friday telling him that I didn't feel well which was partially true because I went to dinner with Trish and my meal was awful! Then I get a text from him yesterday saying Happy Easter.....certainly very nice. I told him on Friday via text that I didn't feel comfortable in meeting him and he said he wasn't worried about it so why should I! So Tony....I told him that I felt it was deceitful and that is not how I want to live my life....
Anyway...UGH for sure. Have I opened up a can of worms? Can this person not just take that I'm not interested in going back into a relationship? I'm really not....perhaps I need to be a little more "direct" in my wishes...
All and all.....I feel pretty good! So many other things to be so thankful for...definitely!
Baci...
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