happy and sad

Some times I wonder why Iam put here. something that I am supposed to accomplish or just to exsist. Who Knows. Its crazy how some things in life are a personification of yin and yang. What I don't get is why those two aspects always seem to be intertwinded with one another? I wish I could fine that line. I just want to achieve happiness without all the excess noise that comes with it.At this point in my life. I just want some assemblence of a "Normal" being. I.E. my own place, career, and someone Iam worthy of . When it come to the latter. I don't where to be. Its like trying to read fine print without the proper glasses. You try to figure stuff out and your always think your on the right track. Still things are happening or changing. Your minds in a hundred different places. your wondering the stars are going to finally aline in your favor. Then you have somebody that adores you even though you have shortcomings or weeknesses. When I find that, then I can truly say I'm happy.