happiness
hmm where do i begin i was not even going to write tonightbut ive been ok and i mean ok but ive not been to a meeting in 3 weeks but something niggled me i suddenly found myself phoning my sponsor and within an hour we was 40 miles away at a meeting i felt at home again heaaring why i need to go and why im happy to be sober another day i sometimes get annoyed that i have to go to meeting do service etc etc etc but hey marky i then get so many times of why i love all of it im sober im alive and i have a wonderfull life back i was such a shy quiet paranoid young man lol no courage no heart i was the little boy whistling in the dark i was weak with no confidence i now love life i enjoy sharing and my confidence is getting stronger each and everyday work has become busy and where the top shop still on our area a year on i remember clearly been the bottom shop mind you i wa drinking on the way to work and then closing the shop up sticking a note on the shutter back in an hour and of i went to the stock room for a sleep then wake up couple of cans and start serving again sometimes seems ages ago other times it can feel like only yesterday i just know even now if i picked a beer up my head is already thinking if you do lets get MORE MORE MORE i dont want that and have to remind myself just how i was at the end walking to a meeting crying my eyes out thinking please help me i dont know what to do please please please i was rock bottom and thought im finished with life today im sober and happyeach and every day we are sober we are all winnersmerry christmas to you all well of i skip down my yellow brick road happy joyous and free xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxmarky
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