Halloween - hard time

I was not fond of Halloween but it never haunted me.  All I saw was a day for kids to get candies and treat, for them to dress up, and for adults, another reason for parties.
Last year and this year and maybe from now on, I take different prospective or viewpoint.
It is hard to see the decorations - esp. when they hang something up (since my son died from hanging).  It is hard to see R.I.P. in people's yard.  It is hard to see other horrific scene. 
Last year, I put a sign and obstacles on my door steps so they could not even come up to the front door to ring my door bell.  This year, I will do the same.
Sorry kids, I just can't handle it.