halloween

i think i'm at the numb part.  today was halloween and like every holiday for 32 years we would celebrate it with fun and silliness, my husband loved the kids but always wanted to give rocks to the adults that wanted candy too!!  i missed him alot today, just like every day.  the tears are less, i don't think i have any more water but my heart hurts.  i feel so lonely no one to talk to but yet i'm surrounded by loved ones and people who care but noone is him.  i want him.