Had enough

I am still struggling with all the same crap that I wrote about before & getting so fed up its beyond. I feel like I am just surviving & not enjoying my life like I would like to be able to do.
My left side is weak most days, constantly dragging the foot. Left arm is weak & grip or strength varies but is generally very weak. Speech is ok sometimes & other times I sound like a drunk, speech slurred & disjointed.
Recently I have been falling asleep/black out at any time which is scary. I can be in the middle of a conversation & will just fade. When I wake up I sometimes dont realise I have been asleep & often start talking as if I was n the middle of a conversation & it makes no sense at all.
I got home tonight & had a phone message that my appt with neurologist for Friday has been cancelled. I phoned up straight away & said that I need to see him or someone else as having troubles. I have got an appt tomorrow instead so hope to get some help or I will be even less happy.
I feel like I am only surviving not really having thelife that I want. I work & come home, try & get some things done, sleep, eat, & not much else.
We went away for a few days but even while away I kept falling asleep & was so fatigued I couldnt do much at all. This is not what I call life at all