Had a ROUGH NIGHT Last Night !!!!!
Last Night ended up being a Rough Night, because instead of having the Peace and Quiet I would have wanted while I was Online - while My BF was Asleep - instead there were several people making a LOT OF NOISE outside ! I don't know IF They were having a Party in a Nearby Apartment in My Building, or what exactly. All I know is that They were making a BIG DISTURBANCE by Talking VERY LOUDLY, AND SHOUTING, AND LAUGHING, AND RUNNING UP AND DOWN THE STAIRWELL that sits near my Apartment Door !!!!! ALSO at One Point I heard a Noise mixed in with Their Conversations, and Their Laughing, that sounded just like a SPRAY PAINT CAN being SPRAYED !!!! That sound made Me wonder IF They were spraying GRAFFITI on My Apartment Building. I found out This Morning that it wasn't that, and instead it turned out that They had sprayed the FIRE EXTINGUISHER that WAS in the HALLWAY outside My Door.... and They must have taken it with Them, since it's GONE NOW !I called the COPS TWICE on Them, but I don't know what good it really did. After My First Phone Call to the Cops, it didn't seem like much had really changed, so I ended up calling AGAIN about an HOUR and a HALF after that FIRST Phone Call. At One Point I think I had heard sounds Outside that sounded like a Cop's Walkie-Talkie Radio thingie.... UNLESS that was just ONE of the JERKS' Cell Phones - I don't know for sure. By about 3 AM This Morning... FINALLY Things Quieted down !!!! I guess by Then those IDIOTS must have got the Picture that Their Noise was ticking People OFF, since the COPS were called !I would HOPE that at LEAST ONE of those IDIOTS actually got into REAL Trouble with the COPS, BUT I figure that's too much to Hope for. At least just the prescence of the COPS, appeared to have been enough to scare them off. I just HOPE that They DON'T do that B.S. AGAIN !!!!! I'll tell You the biggest TWIST to ALL of This ! The Funny Thing is that I WASN'T really completely AFRAID OF those Idiots Outside Last Night.... IT was the THOUGHT of My BF being woken up by Their Noises, and Him consequently storming Outside to go FIGHT THEM !!!!! He potentially could have STORMED OUTSIDE to tell Them to GO AWAY, AND BE QUIET - ( of course NOT in such a POLITE WAY.. LOL ), BUT Then He would have come STORMING BACK into the Apartment, and ended up somehow taking out His RAGE on ME !!!!!! I was Very Afraid of that Possibility ! That was ONE of the Key Reasons I even called the COPS on the IDIOTS Outside ! It's bad enough when We're sitting watching TV, or watching a DVD, and One of Our Neighbors is talking on Their Cell Phone Outside... just out in the Hallway near Our Apartment Door, OR just Outside back here at the Back of the Apartment Building; whenever that happens I'll TRY to tell My BF to just IGNORE IT, but about 8 Times out of 10 He WON'T.... and He ends up stepping Outside, and telling OFF Whoever's Out There making ANY NOISE AT ALL !!!! He's gotten into MANY ARGUEMENTS that Way ! Some of those Arguements have almost scared Me MORE than His RAGE, because I can't help but wonder IF that Person that He just TOLD OFF might try to retaliate by trying to BREAK INTO My Apartment !!!!.... OR even by coming AFTER ME next Time They see Me coming, or going, from My Apartment !!!!! I don't know that Person.... so HOW can I know WHAT THEY MAY, OR MAY NOT DO ????!!!! I've tried to explain that to My BF, but He NEVER listens to REASON about Something like that !!!! ALL He EVER SEES is HIS OPINION of it !!!! HIS " WAY " IS ALWAYS THE " RIGHT WAY ".... AND FOR HIM NOTHING ELSE MATTERS !!!!! He may try to deny this, but it's the Truth... and deep down He knows it ! I suppose it's all tied into the Way that He always seems to feel He has the " RIGHT " to TELL ME what TO DO.. HOW TO DO IT.. AND WHEN TO DO IT !At Times I try a bit of Sarcasm to get the Point across that I DON'T APPRECIATE His TELLING ME WHAT TO DO !!!!! BUT... I don't feel that it sinks in at all !OR IF it does, He just doesn't care about My Opinion.What's so FRUSTRATING a LOT of the TIME is that He'll TELL ME that He DOESN'T WANT ME TO EVER GIVE HIM THE ' SILENT TREATMENT ', and YET He's NOT seeing the FACT that HE TRULY DOES NOT WANT TO HEAR MY TRUE OPINIONS AND FEELINGS ABOUT ANYTHING !!!!! At least this is how He always makes Me Feel !!!! It's do damn Frustrating ! A Good Example is when He'll ASK ME what MOVIE I WANT TO WATCH one Evening, BUT.... AS SOON AS I TELL HIM WHAT I WANT TO WATCH... then He'll come up with a MILION REASONS WHY HE DOES NOT WANT TO WATCH THAT.... and He'll pretty much INSIST that WE WATCH SOMETHING ELSE !!!!!Well... I know I rambled on quite a Bit... but since He's OUT for awhile This Afternoon, I wanted to take advantage of the Time to let out some of my frustrations here in My Journal. There's NO WAY I could type ALL of this while He's Here - ( NOT Unless, Maybe.. IF He was sound Asleep ), because IF He was Here and AWAKE, then He'd be criticizing Me like crazy about how much I was typing, and He'd probably start asking Me what I was typing so much about.Besides the FACT that WHENEVER He's Here, and Awake, He VERY RARELY lets Me just have some Time Online to Myself ! IF He's Here, and Awake, HE ALWAYS EXPECTS ME to be doing Something with HIM ! While, of course I understand that as a Couple We should do Things Together sometimes. BUT My Point is that HE will be ONLINE sometimes when I'm AWAKE, AND HERE, and YET I'M SUPPOSED TO BE OKAY WITH IT even IF He's ONLINE for a LONG TIME !!!! I've got to go for now... because My Knees are KILLING ME TODAY !!!!! I need to go put my Feet Up, and HOPEFULLY that will help the PAIN go away SOMEWHAT !! I HOPE !!!!
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