had a good day

I had a good day today. My fiance and i both slept in and had a great talk i think he may understand me and what im going through a little better. We did a little shopping and i went down to work to let them know i would be back in a little over a week. I think it will do me good to get back instead of moping around the house all day. Jaiden gets back from dads tomorrow im excited to see him i feel like i have let him down so much lately. We are going to buy some kind of tree or flower and plant in the backyard as a memorial for my angel Macy. I think that will bring me a little closure not that i will ever get over this pain i think it will always be there in my heart but i know i have to carry on for the sake of Kev and Jaiden and maybe selfishly for my own sanity. Sometimes lately it feels like i am going a little crazy. Still not sleeping well.