Had a bad weekend.

First, we got the Comcast cable bill and found out that David had been getting up all hours of the night and watching all of the Friday the 13th movies on demand and they were not free.  Now again, we know why he was in his moods the next day after staying up all night and we subtracted the charges from his allowance, AND we put parental controls/locks on the tvs.  Then David refuses to do any of his chores.  Then, I find a knife under his pillow again, rather large pen knife that we had taken from before.  Then David flips out and starts his smashing and screaming again.  I am so tired of this.  If he doesn't learn to control himself over this stupid stuff, what is he going to do when he is older and gets pulled over for a speeding ticket?  Hit the cop?  Maybe I am being overly concerned, but I can't help myself.  Then, again, UGH, we find 1/2 eaten food and cereal bars in David's room and soda and juice bottles and his room is over run with ants!  He had to sleep in the spare bedroom.  We had to take the furniture outside onto the deck (at 11pm) and fumigate his room.  And he gets pissed at us for nagging him and getting in his face!  I am SO tired. And David cut up a good shirt with scissors and we found Paul's new Ipod in David's room as well.  So he is searching our room again and taking stuff, including the knife we had taken away months ago!  Then my mom called yesterday, and my Uncle was killed in a car accident.  I wasn't close to him.  He lived in Montana and I had only met him about 4 or 5 times in my life.  But I am sad for him and his family and my mom and Aunt and Uncle here as he was their brother.  Someone ran a red light.  He apparently was in the car with his wife and he pushed her out of the way.  She survived and is in the hospital.  He was killed.   Work:  we were struggling with 4 people doing my job for the Eastern 1/2 of Pennsylvania.  Then 1 person quit in February.  No replacement yet.  Now another one is going out for rotator cuff surgery on 8/12 and will be out until November!  And they will have to cut him off for new claims at least 8/1 to give him a chance to clean up some of his work.  And the work he does not get done will have to be reassigned!!!!!!   So Saturday night, I just went off the deep end and threw a whole week's worth of work down the tubes and binged on anything I could get my hands on.  It was awful.  I was so totally shut down!  I had lost 2 lbs during the week and one night, put it back on!   I am so frustrated by everything right now.  I know I will survive.  I know to take a deep breath and get back on track.  I would have put a huge red frown on my status had I been on here yesterday.  So I am better today.  I did go for a walk last night with my dog.  She is still my joy.  I got her all brushed and got a bunch of mats out of her.  Some under her arm pits were huge and I had to carefully cut a lot of them out.  Now I have to give stink butt a bath.   Got a new counselor for David and again, saying my prayers that things get better.  David did go on the walk last night with me and talked a little.  Deep down he is a good kid with a big heart.  But when he flips out, he is there but not there.  So, I will keep hanging I guess. Oh, also got a call from exhusband of a woman who was my best friend for many years.  He got hooked on Crack and took all of the money, lost his job, etc.  They ended up selling the house and getting divorced and I haven't heard  from her since.  He says she is doing really bad and he is sober and now has custody of the kids.  I am mad at her for writing me off. I have no way to reach her.  I told him to please have her call me. I have no idea what happened and he did not want to tell me.  Just said it was bad.  So I am worried about her and who knows if I will ever hear from her?  So that kind of hurts.  And I am worried because I still love her.