Gurus & Witch Doctors

Gurus or witch doctors? I've heard it's in the brain, I've read it's in the hands, and of course enzymes are blamed. 12 yrs of treatment tossed to the side because my dr retired and I am at the mercy of newbies who are terrified I may be a drug seeker.   I could assure them, working where I do, (jails/prisons) I could get ANYTHING, I so desire, if I truly wanted.  Furthermore, the people around here seem to be doing Meth not pills.  Meth is easily made by things at the local Dollar General.
PLEASE! Could it be we are TRULY suffering and need them to realize that the drug addict/abuser isn't everyone who screams I need pain medicine!