Guess what is happening.....

So here I am....five years later out of a broken relationship and still talking about this man!  UGH....I truly believe that subconsciously he is a big part of why I have not been able to move forward with another relationship in my life. 
In any event....text messages have been coming about once a week since I saw him last.  Last one was this past Saturday night....I'm sitting on the couch with my IPad as I just got back from Lauren and Andrew's having pizza with them and I get a text message from T about 10 or so.....what's up are you out or up?  Well....I didn't respond of course but then I freak out thinking he is out and about and he is going to stop at my house!  OMG....so I take my stuff and I move to my bedroom so in case he did show up....he couldn't see me sitting there!  WTF.....unbelievable.  So I cave in on Monday and send him a text asking him to meet me for a drink on Friday.....he did ask me week before last and I cancelled out. 
Well you can well imagine these past few days have been filled with anxiety....what will I say; what will he say....blah blah blah.  Everything that I have wanted to say to him over the past 5 years will probably just go out the door!  Definitely going to make sure I'm not liquored up!  HA....
I'll keep you posted......