guess i still have a bit of hope..
so last night i had sat quietly in my room and evaluated the things that have gone on in my life that i wasnt happy about. i thought of the reasons why. and then it hit me. i have spent almost a decade living in hate, envy, bitterness, self loathing and darkness. this year i am going to turn 20 on the 17th of this month and five more years i will be 25. i wondered where i will be when that time approaches and i told myself that i do not want to live the rest of my life envying others happiness and success and often feeling behind others and comparing myself w others. the last few years for my birthday i have always gotten myself high end cosmetic products and this year for my 20 th birthday i am not getting myself expensive products, instead i am getting myself an inspirational book to read every day. i am deciding to take care of my mental health and starting a new chapter in my life. whereever it may lead me.
kathy.
kathy.
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Get your medical marihuana card and try marijuana. You\'ll be so happy for the rest of your life. Just try it. People may say it\'s bad but the people who say that are wrong, never tried it, and/or just plain stupid. Life is short; just smoke a joint.
yeah life is short. and I\'m sort of feeling like I am pretty much done.
how long have u been smoking marajuana? and I\'m also wondering how u r doing.
Well I smoked it once in high school but I didn\'t feel anything so I didn\'t do it anymore. Then this girl got me to try it when I was 19 years old. I smoked it a few days a week for about 5-6 months then I stopped hanging out with her so I couldn\'t get it anymore. But then marijuana was legalized in Colorado so I stared smoking again since the beginning of last year. I haven\'t smoked in 6 months but I can\'t wait til I get some more. You should try it. Smoking marijuana is like taking anti depressants but you don\'t have to smoke it as often. You could probably smoke it 2-3 times a week and be happy for a longer time. You can even try edibles. They\'re like candy bars and you can hide it from your parents better. You should try it considering you live where marijuana is legal for medical purposes.
And I\'m doing ok but I\'m struggling with my anxiety and depression. When I get my marijuana ill feel better. But as you know college is very demanding so that adds to my stress.
Hang in there, Honey. Success isn\'t measured in material goods. Sometimes less is more.
yeah i\'ve been getting a bit better... and now i feel like i am back to square one. i am also dealing w anxiety & depression. i really feel like i am getting back to where i first started...