GRRRRRRRRRRRR
Told someone I would write about this day. Wanted a smoke so bad for the first time since I quit I actually thought about buying a pack. Three cheers for my side. I didn't. I bought a sugar free low carb Cinnamon latte instead. I am postive it tasted a whole lot better than that smoke would have. Not as good as a loaded with sugar, caramel latte with extra caramel and whipped cream. But not half bad either.
Why did I want a smoke? Other than driving down a road that I haven't been on in three months. Probably the only road in town that I ever drove while smoking. With all the windows down in my pickem up truck. Sos I wouldn't smell it up. Other than that I really don't know.
My son is getting divorced. This does not make me want to smoke. God, forgive me, Please. I want to stand up and yell at the top of my voice, while doing a happy stomp....YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Finally he has extracted his cranium from his anus and taken a look at what she is doing to her daughter, their sons and him. Her housekeeping skills are non existant, her parenting skills even worse. I swear if she called her kids or my son A f---ing bastard again, there would have been no need for a divorce. She was on Meth for years, went to rehap, came home and started popping any pill she could get a hold of. Stealing them (mine included) if she couldn't buy them. She is 33 years old and looks about 65. She has wished me dead ( to my face), she has cheated on my son, wreaked cars,(with my gradchildren in them.) Gotten DWI's, had bench warrents, had CPS called numerous times. And NOTHING was done to stop this insanity. Everything I tried to do was met with obstacles. From reporting her driving under the influence to trying to talk to my son.
At this moment she has agreed to leave all three kids with their dad and has gone off to rehab again. They both say the marriage is over. I pray they stick to this. For each of their sakes (they are no good for one another.) and for the sake of those beautiful children. It is not like they haven't tried. Might be better said to say he tried because she never has for 11 years. Thats a long time in this situation. For 98% of that 11 years she has sat on her fanny and let the kids wait on her. She keeps one child home from school every single day so she doesn't have to be alone. So she has someone to fetch and carry for her. She is usually so doped up she can't move anyway. She was up to 6 Vicadin every 4 hours ( that was 4 years ago.) Heaven only knows how many she takes at a time now.
Maybe next time I will write about how my darlin' son can ask for a favor and make you feel like crap at the same time. Quite a trick that.
I will probably take a some garbage for this as I did for the last page I wrote about her. But that is OK. It's my joirnal and unless one has walked a mile in these feet you can't totally know what it's like.
Love 'n hugs cause that's just me!
Why did I want a smoke? Other than driving down a road that I haven't been on in three months. Probably the only road in town that I ever drove while smoking. With all the windows down in my pickem up truck. Sos I wouldn't smell it up. Other than that I really don't know.
My son is getting divorced. This does not make me want to smoke. God, forgive me, Please. I want to stand up and yell at the top of my voice, while doing a happy stomp....YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Finally he has extracted his cranium from his anus and taken a look at what she is doing to her daughter, their sons and him. Her housekeeping skills are non existant, her parenting skills even worse. I swear if she called her kids or my son A f---ing bastard again, there would have been no need for a divorce. She was on Meth for years, went to rehap, came home and started popping any pill she could get a hold of. Stealing them (mine included) if she couldn't buy them. She is 33 years old and looks about 65. She has wished me dead ( to my face), she has cheated on my son, wreaked cars,(with my gradchildren in them.) Gotten DWI's, had bench warrents, had CPS called numerous times. And NOTHING was done to stop this insanity. Everything I tried to do was met with obstacles. From reporting her driving under the influence to trying to talk to my son.
At this moment she has agreed to leave all three kids with their dad and has gone off to rehab again. They both say the marriage is over. I pray they stick to this. For each of their sakes (they are no good for one another.) and for the sake of those beautiful children. It is not like they haven't tried. Might be better said to say he tried because she never has for 11 years. Thats a long time in this situation. For 98% of that 11 years she has sat on her fanny and let the kids wait on her. She keeps one child home from school every single day so she doesn't have to be alone. So she has someone to fetch and carry for her. She is usually so doped up she can't move anyway. She was up to 6 Vicadin every 4 hours ( that was 4 years ago.) Heaven only knows how many she takes at a time now.
Maybe next time I will write about how my darlin' son can ask for a favor and make you feel like crap at the same time. Quite a trick that.
I will probably take a some garbage for this as I did for the last page I wrote about her. But that is OK. It's my joirnal and unless one has walked a mile in these feet you can't totally know what it's like.
Love 'n hugs cause that's just me!
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