growing very tired of this life

 for along time now i have been growing weary of this life,we lead. the ups the downs the disappointments even the little things such as missing a tv show. trying to read is not an option for me anymore or drawing , never can i finish a book or a picture just becomes 1 continues line drawing or a scribble fest with a small amount of drool mixted in, my back hurts from leaning forward when i fall asleep sitting upwrght and my neck hurts from my fat head falling backwards when i fall asleeep sitting upwards i just can't win i am finding myself working all the time just so i don't sleep allday ,i hade the day off on  labor day and i slept  16 out of 24, pissed that time away in the blink of an eye literially.  i am to the point i don't even bother making up excuses anymore why i don't go anywhere i just say i fell asleep. depression aint it a bitch.  hey i tried to be happy , but i just don't care anymore ,life just keep serving up shit sandwhiches and i am wearing a bib and standing 1st inline to take a bite, listen to me i sound like a beat dog maybe i should get my mommy to hold my hand, just  tired of the whole deal,  but that life , hey does anyone have an extra pillow ,it's time for my next nap.          goodnite folks