Gross day

Hannah and I went up town after school and went to the mall. I tried on a bikini top...its like I was transfixed to the full mirror..my hips are too big my stomach not flat enough my breasts too big. She wanted to see me in the bikini too..and I had to hold the curtain of the changing room to let her know that I really meant no this time. We are going to a pimps and hoes party and Hannah wants me to be the pimp and she the hoe. Her mate has a tv screen in his car and all the sounds so she's gunna borrow his car and make our grand entrance the party. I swear people are thinking we are a couple now..everyone sees us at the mall together like everyday and always at school and they all know im gay but poor Hannah, I just hope people dont start spreading roumours again like me and Vicky had. so I hate my body I don't even want breasts. I just had dinner. This feeling is so low now, I can't seem to shake it off.