grieving

I was out with my friend on sunday night,it is his last night out,all his family went out and friends on a bus he put on,it is such a big shock to beleive he is dying ,the cancer is all over his body.He was on crutches and looked terrible.I am finding it too difficult to cope with and sleeping all day,i cant be there for him as it has hit me very hard and feel so depressed,im hoping to pick up soon so i can go over and see him,i beleive he only has weeks to live,and only found out he had cancer on friday,im trying to get the night off work as i have flu aswell,i feel so pathetic