GREEN SMILEY DAY !

I am sitting here on this rainy "Green Smiley Day" reading some of these heartfelt journals, some sad, and some Hilarious!!  I love to laugh!  I don't like to cry, but it feels better after I do. I think of it as LIQUID PRAYER! It seems when I cry, I attend to learn something from it, it puts me back on the right path....Maybe it has something to do with growing through my grieve, after having almost 4 years behind me..April 15 will be Ryans 4th Angel Day.. Cannot believe it!! I LOVE YOU RYAN!!!! I WANT YOU TO BE PROUD OF ME, AS I WAS OF YOU, MY PRECIOUS SON. I KNOW YOU WANTED ME SO VERY MUCH TO BE PROUD OF YOU, THATS WHY I WAS SO NIEVE ABOUT YOUR DRUG USE. YA, ERICA TOLD ME YOU DIDNT WANT ME TO KNO B/C, YOU WANTED ME TO BE PROUD OF YOU, AND ALL YOU WANTED IS FOR ME TO BE HAPPY...I WILL MISS YOU UNTIL THE DAY WE REUNITE AGAIN.. UNTIL THEN PLEASE CONTINUE TO SHOW ME YOUR AWESOME SIGNS OF YOUR PRESENCE...I CAN FEEL YOU AROUND ME SOMETIME.. PLEASE CONTINUE WITH THOSE SIGNS, THEY MAKE ME HAPPIER THEN YOU KNOW... LOVE, MOM