great mood for a change

so for the last while things have been interesting with school, and the home life and the dating life , i ended up finding a guy that makes me feel so good about myself , and i get up every day lately and im glade to be here and not one thought about waiting for death to happen , before i couldnt even drive my car 2 blocks before having a thought of wanting to drive my car off a cliff and now im excited im happy im getting good grades so far a 90 average in my math. i get math all day so far so only class to work with but its going good, im enjoying it, and when i get frusturated its nice i havent been my normail frusterated self the way i get because i hate it when im like that. thats not who i want to be like that. latley i find my self having more tolerance thats acceptible before i would flip out over spilled milk. and i have cut my appitite down i only eat what i need to , well and then some still at times but i defintly dont eat like i use too and i droped 10 pounds since just before xmas witch feels great im woundering how much i will loose by the time summer hits maybe i can wear a bathing suit and be comfortable well if not always shorts and a tanktop . caint wait to talk my kid swimming shes gunna love the beach and so on.
 
i never thought i would see the day of actually wanting to get up for the day and putting real effort in my apperance. makes me feel like i can do anything and my man helps the way he tells me things like he loves me they way i am but hell help me loose as much as it takes for me too be happy with my self.