graves rage

Hello, everyone, I'm 21 years old and was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism and then was later diagnosed with graves disease. I'm scared and upset and feel completely alone. I know I'm not the first person to have graves but in my personal life, I feel like everyone could care less. I guess that has to do with the very little knowledge people have about this disease I didn't know how scary it could be till I talked to my endocrinologist. I just feel extremely alone in this I have a fiance and a son I didn't even get to spend Christmas with them because I was to "moody" I'm not spending new years with him he'd rather spend it with his friends (he hasn't seen them in 3 years but still he can't even ask if I want to go). This is the first time I'm having suicidal thought and It hurts my heart. </3 I'm noticing protruding in my eyes and I'm so skinny I can feel all my organs in my stomach (it's disgusting) I tend to be hard on myself, I hate the way I look I hate the way I feel and I can't help but people even random people feel the same way about me as I do.
Anyway, this is just the beginning of my journey if someone who is way past this part and knows how it feels can you please give me advice? and if anyone is going through the same or somewhat the same send me love and I'll do the same for you.