Gratitude

I am grateful for all of you. I will try to write a little something each day. It's kind of like weeding the garden: my grandmother said if you just pull 10 weeds a day you'll have a nice weed-free garden. Well, that's because you can't stop at 10! HAH!So I'll just commit to plunking down 10 words and if that's all I do, fine. If I can find a half-decent thought or quote or song or idea, even better.
Today the most useful thought was from a friend who is grieving, and she said that she has figured out that she just has to allow for private little moments of inner silence. Nobody has to know. She could be in the middle of the supermarket or at work or anywhere, and it will come over her that she needs to hold her moment and connect to her loved one. I think I can give this a try.
I am having a little trouble sleeping. I know that's normal but hey I don't like it. : ( I don't want to go to bed until I'm nearly asleep b/c I hate to lie there and think about sad things. I turn on the light and read some more if that happens. I try to get lot of exercise but that has been hard recently... oh everything is connected! I have trouble concentrating at work so I need 30 hours to get in 20 hours of decent billable time, and there goes my exercise time. I think I need to make it a higher non-negotiable priority!!
Seee. there you go. way more than 10 words.
Be well * live with love * goodnight Andy
Sarah 

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biowoman
biowoman

Sarah we are glad you are here as well...you can share happy thoughts or the struggles of grieving...whatever you feel...it is okay to write. I hope you will be able to work in that exercise...sounds like it helps you...love and hugs...Karen
Livingjuicy
Livingjuicy

I like what your grandmother shared with you. Just a little something each day is what is needed to make a difference. All of what you are sharing is so normal and simply knowing that you are not alone in these feelings can be a relief. Your loss is so fresh and raw. Be gentle with yourself as you go about your day and the companionship that is here is what has kept me putting one foot in front of the other. Hugs to you and I look forward to hearing more about your precious son, Andy. Your friend. Joanie
CorriesMom
CorriesMom

I like the idea of just stopping no matter where you are when you feel that need wash over you to be close to your child. Thanks so much for sharing. We are very grateful to have YOU here too.

Sending love and thoughts of peace ~ Debbie
KandL
KandL

Dear Friend, I am deeply sorry to hear of the passing of your beloved son Andy. I will keep you &your family in my heart & prayers. Sincerely, Linda, Eddie\'s mom