Grateful for DS

Sometimes I feel so alone with this infertility thing. It feels good to know that there are people out there who have similar thoughts and feelings as me. Other people who are tired of Facebook, other people who get irritated with the baby ad's that pop on the side. At times I have felt like I was strange for feeling that way. I have tried things like making myself feel happy for people who pop out babies so easliy. I have tried not to be envious of my fiance's ex-wife who spit out two kids back to back so easily. And I have tried ot be optimistic when people keep asking me 'When are you going to have babies?'. Not, 'when are you going to get married' but when am I going to have kids. I haven't told them that I have been trying for three years now, and I am scared to get married until I know I can have children, especially since he already has two. I don't want to be the wife that can't. Well anyway, being a part of this groups means a lot to me. Last night I had a dream that I got pregnant. Actually this whole week I have been having dreams like that. I have also tried denying the fact that I even want children. Well anyway, I"m glad that this groups exists, and glad that I am now a part of it.